crap

it's been a crappy week all right, days go by and my day is getting worse. The injury I had weeks ago is not healed, and the tourney is next week. Yesterday I tried sparring and my skill has gone down a LOT. I don't like it, because of the injury I haven't been training. One week to go can I get my skill back and injury healed? I hope so. My studies are except for math, I failed my first test and I'm goin to drop the subject AGAIN. ugrh. make matters worse, my friend..... I just found out she commited suicide yesterday. Jumped down from a tall bulding. I dont know why she did that... She seemed ok when she talks to me whenever i see her however I know she has this pain in her heart but I guess she didn't want to share it out and I was afraid to ask her to share it out as well. She was my classmate ever since when we were in primary skool and just met her again last year when I got here. I don't know the reason why yet.... but I do know she coudlnt handle that her father commited suicide last year. It's so sad when people do that, I coudlnt pay attention in class, and I keep thinking to myself "why do people do that???" To me i dont think its a way to solve all problems. anyway I'm goin to get ready to go KL, going to have a little 'drink, with my friends. Just for social.

People when you have problems, I know it's hard to sometimes tell other people about it but I also learnt sometimes if you keep everything to yourself and not share it with someone, It's goin to be really hard. Maybe you feel uncomfortable when you share it with someone else. Try God. anyway you can look for me as well ^^ My fone and ear will be on 24/7
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15 comments:

april said...

when you commented on my blog using the name "jas" i thought it was a girl friend of mine. hahaha. but its you. lolx new nickname again?? =P so here i am reading your blog. thinking real hard. someone who actually has the guts to jump off a tall building. sad. i dont know what to say and i shall not say much. and i hope your injury will heal soon. and good to hear that your fone and ear will be on 24/7. can disturb. hehehe. blehhh.

Psyhun said...

My sympathies for you.... its just not getting any better for you week after week.... all that is to do now is to wait.... as some says, time heals all.... and then your time will come....

Commiting suicide in my opinion is never the way to go end your problems unless really really necessary.... its just a fast way out and a one way ticket only.... it will not get the problem resolved and all the loss is gone to you.... really a sad sad way to end your life.... perhaps one that does this can't see the value of their life anymore.... where everything comes to an end or more like a false end....

uranus_yiu said...

oh dear.. i'll remember u in prayer tonite for healing upon u. practice makes perfect but better watch out for ur body first.. and hope u win in the tournament too.

hmm.. one way ticket.. yeah agree to that.. but it's a one way ticket to hell... sorry to say that... commiting suicide is a sin... and yeah, i would not ever do that to solve problem..

i have had sad times b4 too. that moment i really felt like going to die just in order to forget and escape from all the pain, but i didn't do it ..
coz to tell u the truth, i'm afraid of death (i had fallen off a clift b4, i thought i must be dead, but i was unharm, only a few scratches, thanks to God's protection)..lol..

to me, i'm the same type like that girl... looks happy from outside but a lot of probs inside... and i dun like to tell others about my prob... coz i always had that feeling that i might be bothering others... thankfully i have GOD, so i guess that the strenght from Him that pulls me thru each time...
maybe i have little trust on other ppl... or maybe i just like to deal things by myself... can't say that i'm a tough girl but can say that i will be fine if u leave me alone... (Let God deal with me..lol)

it's hard to make someone to open up their hearts to u if they are not willing... so it's not ur fault and dun blame urself for not asking her about her problems...

really a sad thing to hear, i also can't imagine how sad i would feel if my fren were to commit suicide too..

well, hope that u will not be so sad anymore.. and be happy always.. :) for u will bring smiles to other ppl too.. that's my motto.. lol...

Psyhun said...

that's kinda harsh to say to some one "one way ticket to hell"..... committing suicide is a sin.... in your religion perhaps.... but those who follow their own hearts.... perhaps she found that it was the best way for her even though we disagree..... I just hope she does not regret it........

jason said...

actually i agree with her, because we share the same religion. I don't even want to think where she is right now even though i have a good idea where. However whatever religion I have I still don't think suicide is a way to end it

uranus_yiu said...

yeah.. that's why i said,'sorry to say that' well.. maybe i'm really harsh.. sorry again

well.. if i were in ur(jason) shoes i would probably think the same too.. wouldn't want to think where she is ...

all we can do is just continue with our life and pay more attention to the close one around us...

sorry for being harsh...

and thanks for agreeing with me..

Psyhun said...

Wherever she is now is not something any of us can answer..... you may think she is really where she is but does that place even exist?... not that I'm against what you believe, but can never really know can't we?!... Death perhaps is just the end and nothing more, where from now on she only lives on as a memory....

uranus_yiu said...

ermmm... wanted to say sumthing but..well.. guess better not...

dun want to argue anymore...

anyway, everyone have their own believes. I respect others of their own believes. so well... i guess that's all that i can say..

lol, but i dun really agree with u that "death perhaps is just the end and nothing more"... dun want to debate about it though... sorry if i said anything that makes u feel uneasy...

peace v(^_^)v

Psyhun said...

Well, we can go on argueing about the whole stuff.... of course you won't agree with me and of course I won't agree with you..... there is no end to is...... unless I brainwash you :P .....

uranus_yiu said...

lol... brainwash.. hmm... must buy a lot of brush and soap to clean it up... took me years to keep it all in my brain...lol

well better dun say that we are arguing but just say that we were having a deep conversation..lol

so i hope no hard feelings and be frens... ^^

Psyhun said...

YARGH!!! KILL KILL KILL!! DIE DIE DIE!! KILL ALL THAT DEFIES ME!! RESISTANCE IS FUTILE!! MUAH HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA............ joking :P......

uranus_yiu said...

lol... u laugh so evil... but funny... ^^

jason said...

omg

jason said...

omg this comment thing for the blog has become more of a forum and chat thing lolz

uranus_yiu said...

lol... i think everything will end here...sorry for going out of topic