so what has been happening?

I guess I owe my readers an explanation for the lack of updates. It's not that I have no inspiration or have been busy playing video games bur rather been hit with an intesive course of four classes and 2 assignments all jam packed in 1.5weeks. I've started my new course in Masters of Teaching: Secondary Education and have already embarked on a new journey of becoming what I've always wanted to do, which is to be a teacher. I must say that I've already learnt a lot in my 4 days of intensive class compared to my 3 years in getting my Bachelor of Business.

It's interesting to learn about different philosophies in teaching from Gandhi, Friere, Bell Hooks and many other greats to develop your own philosophy for teaching. I still have a lot to learn and thank God for teachers in my church that can help me :P *coughs*

I know that this blog has been mainly on my reflections and revelations from God that can encourage others. I was thinking of creating another one on Education and Teaching. I think this course has tapped into something that was dormant in me for awhile and now has come alive. Never in my life I've enjoyed doing assignments, studying and learning. (could be because of my awesome lecturer). Neverthless I'm pumped, stoked and ready to be on this journey of becoming Great Teacher Jason! GTJ!! (ok lame I know -_-" )

The mediocre teacher tells, the good teacher explains. The superior teacher demonstrates. The great teacher inspires. - William Arthur Ward

I want to inspire by believing in the kids, giving hope and power to those who does not. Believing in all they can do and be, letting go of what others tell about them....

Being a Teacher

I have come to the frightening conclusion that I am the decisive element in the classroom.

It's my personal approach that creates the climate.

It's my daily mood that makes the weather.

As a teacher, I possess a tremendous power to make a student's life miserable or joyous.

I can be a tool of torture or an instrument of inspiration.

I can humiliate or humor, hurt or heal.

In all situations, it is my response that decides whether a crisis will be escalated or de-escalated,

And a student humanized or dehumanized.

Haim Ginott, Author and Teacher

Happy Australia Day

Happy Australia Day to all! Let's all not forget the new citizens (Congrats Fab) and the flood victims. Get your BBQ fired up and beer ready, go to the beach, swim and stay safe! :)

Preparation

As I'm sitting here waiting for Baby A to finish cooking and watching the Australian Open, I just realised I have not updated my blog for more than a week. A lot of crazy things has happened, got into a car accident, hoping for my application for Masters of Teaching to be successful (and it starts on the 24th!), preparation for Gen418 and our Uni/Youth service Infuse and a lot of disappointment and discouragement, but what makes a person a fighter and warrior is that they choose to pick themselves up when they are down and fight through the tough times, giving the sacrifice of praise even though there's pain in the offering.

I've been reading a lot of books on leadership in preparation for what is to come. God spoke to me clearly that 'He has called me to be a leader' in prayer meeting 2.5 years ago and I have been watching, learning and trying my best to live it out.

As I step into more of that role I realized there's a lot of costs. Investing in people's lives, and people who might criticise you can drain you emotionally. The attack can somehow makes you wonder if you're even worthy to be in that position. Another thing I found out was that the devil hates you a lot. As Ed Young said... A whole notha level, a whole notha devil.

I realised the intensity of the attacks on me has been so great and much for the past few months. Lies, temptations, questions have all got me, for the first time ever I felt as if poison darts has injected in my heart whenever I get these attacks. I can literally feel 'the fierty darts' from the enemy.

I realised there are personal things that are not wrong but have to give up in order to live a life of significance. God has speaking to me about pruning things off in my life that will hold me back or that will hinder God's involvement in my life.

There'll probably me more things that I will learn as I go on but at the end of the day I don't want to give up and throw the towel......

'Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up' Gal 6:9

what is life?

First post of 1/1/11 + Miracle!!!

I wasn't planning on blogging or writing my first post of 2011 in the first day of the year but something funny happened at work that I had to share.

Some of you might know I managed to get Sunday off work which is a good thing because it means I can focus my energy on the church and not get tired but I never knew the reason why my manager gave me Sunday off, I just thought it was because I had church so she gave me the Sunday off. Turns out I found the real reason today.... and the reason was 'I was practicing to be a priest' so apparently I managed to get Sunday off. I thought I find that funny and cute. I am a royal priest :)

However! The coolest part for today was at work. The hotel was fully booked and we can't move any guests to any room because it was 100% occupancy. There were two problems with two rooms which me and my supervisor tried to fix.

1.) remote had dead batteries, screw was on the remote control, needed a screwdriver. Problem was maintenance had gone home and there were no screwdriver and new batteries available. Poor Guest can't watch TV or Play their Wii.

2.) Air corn in another room was dead, the panel used to control the air corn was dead and we couldn't fix it. again... maintenance was gone... poor guest had to sleep tonight with no A/C

My supervisor then found an odd looking screwdriver and asked me to give it a go on the remote to see if I could get the batteries out. I went to the room, it didn't fit in the screw and the sudden thought just hit me. 'Why not just command the batteries to have power again?' and so I laid hands on the remote control and released power to the remote control. Tried it and the remote started working again!!! Then I got excited and went to the room where the A/C wasn't working and turn off the power, commanded it to work and turn on the power and it WORKED!! as if nothing has gone wrong. is that a way to start the new year or what? I told my supervisor the good news that I prayed and it worked and asked if she would like to come and see the A/C working... and she said 'no need I believe you'

Sure the Remote Control and the Aircorn didn't accept Jesus but it was still a miracle, seeing how God can even cause 'dead' things to work again. oh and yes... pretty much word spread quickly that I was 'practicing' to be a priest. Let's hope my workplace can be changed for the glory of God! :)

Happy New Year and top 10 posts of 2010

Just want to wish you all a Happy New Year! 2010 is going to be over soon and I thank God for a fruitful and great year. Been seeing breakthroughs and even the desires of my heart fulfilled. And even more traffic for my blog XD Of course there are some rough times but God is still good no matter what.

What am I expecting for 2011? A lot of stuffs provided if I’ll be able to stay and that’s my biggest hurdle at the moment but I know everything is going to be ok. Either way I’m going to love Jesus more and go from glory to glory.

And here are the top 10 posts of 2010! ( in no particular order)

1.) But God
2.) I'm not as good as
3.) Consolation Prize
4.) Sunday Night Reflections
5.) got to love twitting
6.) Psalm 100
7.) Trust God for who He is
8.) 2010 Dreams Moving Ahead
9.) Thinking too much- Unbelief
10.) The call to nazarite consecration by Lou Eagle

Thinking too much- unbelief

This is part of a journey in my current life that I would like to share and hopefully by the end you can celebrate the victory and breakthrough with me.

As you know a few posts ago I was babbling on about how I wasn't sure what my future would be.. IF God would be able to allow me stay, IF He would open the door for me seeing other people's door closed, IF I were to go home what was there for me to do? All these questions just keep hitting me and few weeks ago I decided to add the 'Popular posts' function for my blog and found out that my post on 'But God' was one of the popular post. I went in and have a read again and these sentences that I wrote hit me.

"The vision that God has given us is dead, speak life to it and I’ll breathe life to it, prophecy to it

Some of the visions and dreams that God had for me was dead, I didn’t believe in it because there wasn’t fruit or rather, its dead and once its dead its dead. However I began to speak life to it, prophecy the visions and dreams God has for me..."

I can't believe I wrote that at that time, and now it has encouraged me again after reading it. I have chosen to finally let go ,made the decision to not worry and not let it be a poison that would affect my relationship with God. If God's will is for me to stay.. He WILL make a way..... there's no way He can go back in His words. There's also this dimension of unbelief that I was having.. I had no faith... I was thinking God does not want to bless...God will this come to pass? I sit and think think think.. I think I think too much.

Heb 3:12 says See to it, brothers, that none of you has a sinful, unbelieving heart that turns away from the living God

I had no faith, had a heart of unbelief , a heart that was deceitful. I remember Bill Johnson once said unbelief is partnering with the devil. I've been feeding doubt by building cases, asking questions, that it has infected my life. But why must I think evil in my heart? Why do I say no when God says yes? yes to the dreams He has for me, Yes for a great plan for my life, Yes that He wants to partner with me in this...

Why not? His desire is to bless, but we must receive.. receive by faith. Believe and not doubt. Believe that you have received them. If you think you are going to be a failure you are, if you think you are going to be poor you are....As a man thinks in his heart (heart again.. see the connection?), so is he. Dr Cho talks about confessing a thousand times, what are you speaking?? That was why I shared on Sunday that declaring, confessing shifts not only the atmosphere but You! That is why I think Dr Cho is a spiritual giant and through his own breakthrough has opened the door for others... I remember confessing that I was going to get a job and I got it, I remember confessing that I'm going to see healings and miracles in my life and I saw it. If you don't ask and speak it, no matter how big God is, nothing is gonna happen.

The greatest thing I have now is my personal testimony with God. I can look back on what God did for me in the past, all these times His favor was on me, the times I made Him small, He showed himself strong, the times I thought all was lost, a miracle happened. Through my own experiences with God I remember His goodness, His provision and His faithfulness.

I'm not going to hang my head but raise my hand and sing of His goodness and faithfulness.

I might or might not get it but I've made the decision to know whatever it is.. God knows what's best.

Merry Christmas!

Firstly sorry for the lack of update for the past week, I do however had many things to write on dreams, seasons and faith. Been too caught up with work and games that I don't have time to write it.

This is just a short entry to wish everyone and my readers a Merry Christmas!! You're ALL invited to come over to my house this Thursday for Christmas Dinner, Pm me if you would like to come, I won't be giving out my address to keep myself away from any stalker or any crazy fans of mine ;)

p.s- if you are overseas, fly over to the Gold Coast and I'll sort out accomodation for you =)

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Update: Just wanted to share this by Perry Noble on Peace.. just a summary but you can get the whole thing from his podcast

• “Peace is not something we work for or earn on our own – it is a gift given to us.”
• “When you do not have peace you try to cope and manufacture it.”
• "You cannot fix what is wrong on the inside by rearranging what is on the outside.”
• “The real lack of peace is not because we don’t have enough stuff but rather because we don’t have the right relationships with God and others.”
• “When we focus on fear we become a failure – when we focus on the Father it increases our faith.”

end of 2010 (almost)

well its almost the end of 2010....

This year has been good, because God is good. Starcraft 2 came out, Black ops, got a PS3, Cheeky babe, saw a breakthrough in healings and miracles, seeing where God has taken me from the Jason of 09' to the Jason of 10' has been an amazing journey, the 40 day fast during the start of the year was worth it.

However my race has been put to a halt for the past week because I couldn't sense His presence, I'm not backslidden technically but I find it hard to connect in with God during my quiet time. lots of crazy stuffs been happening with other people, and I'm still unsure about my Visa. Should I study again? but if I got my PR studying would be so much cheaper. I've got no home, but here on the Gold Coast... I've never really fitted in back in Malaysia or Brunei (no offence, people are great but it just doesn't feel like home) I have a great destiny planted in this church and it'll all be a waste just leaving, I have so much to grow. End of 2005 God has called me to be in Australia and now I know the reason why, my heart burns for this nation, for the people and for the church.

This is no excuse though because I want to keep pressing in, keep going on till I see the breakthrough. Procrastination is a killer and I don't want to waste a day not just worshiping but praying too. I find that worshiping in itself is good but without prayer there's something missing really. Prayer is when you find yourself drawing near to God and that's where your secret history with God is made. I want to believe for a miracle, God owns the whole world, I'm sure its possible even though in my eyes it seems impossible.....

'Lord teach me to pray'

Dream Big: prologue

what are your dreams? Are you living life as if you weren't afraid of anything? What would your life look like if you were ten times more courageous?

10 Scriptures to boost your identity in Christ

I just read this from Dean Rush's site, one of the pastor from C3 Auckland, read it, loved it and would like to share what he wrote. deanrush.net

Get a fresh revelation of who you are in Christ

quote these scriptures of over your life, your job, your family, your future and you will never be the same!

1. 1 John 3:1 See what great love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God! And that is what we are!

2. Philippians 4:13 I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength

3. Romans 8: 31 If God is for us who can be against us

4. Psalm 139:13 For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made

5. 1 Corinthians 6:19 Do you not know that you are God’s temple and that God’s Spirit lives in you

6. Ephesians 2:10 For we are God’s workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.

7. 2 Corinthians 5:17 Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation: The old has gone, the new has come

8. 1 John 4: 4 greater is He who is in you than he who is in the world

9. 2 Timothy 1:7 For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline

10. 1 John 5:4 for everyone born of God overcomes the world. This is the victory that has overcome the world, even our faith

Tong Hua (童话) Cover by Jason Chen & J Rice

I used to listen to this song a lot, and it still is one of my favorite Chinese song. I always wondered how it would sound like if you sang it in English and this cover just nails it! Listen when Rice sings the Mandarin part of it. This white guys chinese is better than mine -_- Too awesome not to watch/listen to! Lets hope they do a full chinese version

Few days to go...

Few days to go till I fly back to the Gold Coast, its been fun having this break not looking forward to work but looking forward to see my Chicky Babe ;)

So I tried asking my company if they were willing to sponsor me for a PR and they told me they were not willing to (bummer) Good thing I received the news after doing my quiet time so I didn't feel discouraged. Did I feel disappointed? yes, but not to the point I would go to depression like before. I'll remember that disappointment is an opportunity for a miracle. Even if I don't see good, I don't feel good, I'll choose to remember good. I choose to remember how God has brought me so far for the past 4 years and His favor on me this year doing more than I could've imagined.

I'm really glad that I had this holiday to reflect more and try to finish books that I started earlier this year :p One thing God reminded me while I was on the bus few days ago was about me being a trailblazer. I always thought it was just about ministry but the sudden thought hit me, no one in church has applied for PR before, or some have applied but didn't get it and I just have this sense God is gonna use this situation that I'm going through to bring a breakthrough and be a testimony to others.

Is it normal to intercede and out of the blue you blurted out 'I wanna die now' while interceding? That was one interesting experience

Amber Brooks- like you promised

A song i've been listening this week, that has really touched me. Amber Brooks a very anointed worship leader
Amber Brooks- like you promised.. the video won't show on facebook but its on my site.

(oh and I've pre-ordered the new Jesus Culture album- Come away which should arrive on my doorstep on Monday :) )



Stir these stagnant waters of my soul,
Merge me with Your river which springs life,
I don’t have all the right words to say
That will provoke You to want me
Anymore than you already do.

Chorus:
So won't You come,
Come like You promised
Pour out Your Spirit,
Pour out Your Spirit!

Overcome the darkness of my life,
Jesus be the strength of my life.
Reaching past my hiding,
Oh, reach out to my running,
Oh, Lord, come fill my soul with Your love!

You love like a Father!
You love like a brother!
You love like a Lion,
Fierce Like no other!
You violently chase me
Down, to embrace me.
Engulf me,
In who You are!

Brunei: Kingdom of unexpected treasures

I have not done a blog on travelling before so here's my first ill attempt to blog about my visit to the country I grew up in for the first 17 years of my life and also to promote this little country
called Brunei. Not many people know about this little country, except probably for most middle eastern country because its a muslim nation and in the last few years more Asian countries are aware of Brunei because of this 'unxpected treasure' that was discovered. I wish it was me =( but this guy beat me to it, Wu Zhun got famous through his boyband and appearing in many popular Taiwanese teen idol drama. So whenever I tell someone from Taiwan or China I grew up in Brunei they would go 'oooo wu zhun!'

Yes, that's him

Brunei is only well known for its oil and gas, and the Sultan used to be the richest man in the world before Bill Gates. Anyhow we only pay $0.52 a litre of gas, there's no taxes, Bruneians are rich people (i'm not rich... Im Malaysian) and because of that there is a downside, the country doesn't get many toursits and even though its almost the same size as Singapore there aren't many things to do here. I miss the Theme park we used to have which has closed because it wasn't making any money. However there ARE a few things that are worth visiting like the 6 star Empire hotel which is worth staying and has worn awards for being the best Golf Resort in The Asia Pacific.

Funny enough I managed to do a bit of sight seeing myself. Brunei has the largest (I think) if not one of the largest water village in the world and to be honest, it was quite interesting and I actually enjoyed the ride on the speedboat on the river. I actually felt like a tourist, maybe because I've been away for years!!

People travel with their speed boats or taxi boats around Kampong Ayer (the water village)

This is the school

A mosque in the middle of the village

I wonder if the students in the school ever wonderd if one day the wood would rot,

turn weak and fall in the river in the middle of the class.

That is not to say people are not advanced in the village. Look! There's 3 Satellite dish in that house.

Kids swimming in the river, but the water's really dirty with people throwing garbage in the river =(

New villages,oh also there are A/C in the the village lol

... and even a Gas Station, so cool!

and also Police Station

This boat ride was like many other river cruise I've been on, but neverthless it was pretty exciting because it's different and theres this 'Brunei' Feel to it.

We got into deep in the forest, swamps and there's a chance you'll encounter snakes and crocodilesSo you got to hire a Ninja. kidding. That's my boatman

But we got to see LOTS of Proboscis Monkey!!! Which made this trip relaly worth it.
I can't believe I have 6 days left before I have to go back to reality and work. This short holiday has been good, managed to rest, relax and God speaking to me about my PR situation, now I got to have faith and noit worry so much about it and pray for a miracle.

Mario's read... are you?

Looks like Mario and Donkey Kong are ready to take over the world...... are you??

revival is here

The call

Ps Lance was sharing about Leadership and the calling from God on Sunday and it reminded me what God spoke to me in the beginning of this year through Luke 1:29-38

God's favor was on Mary but it lead to pain, people ridiculed her and Joseph her husband wanted to leave her. Not only that but her son would be one that would be rejected and murdered. Mary had a great calling to give birth to the Son of the Most High that His kingdom will never end. I'm not sure how I got this during my quiet time but I wrote and highlighted 'A great calling comes with a great price'

That spoke to me for sure but the problem is I haven't really asked myself what the cost and price is. I know God has called me in the area of Leadership, there are times I really want to run away from it or not even go into it but there's something in my heart that wants to be in that position.
God has put greatness in us that is why we are longing for greatness, to be the head and not the tail, above and not beneath. Lance shared the leaders fail because when the time comes to pay the price, they fail... when it comes to perseverance, forgiveness, money or even servanthood are we willing to pay the price for it?

God doesn't look at our ability but our heart.

We may see that we are weak, we lack ability but God has said that His going to use the weak things of the world to same the strong. (1 Cor 1:27).

Lord I remember the promise you gave me to be a person of Destiny that will leave a Legacy. Mould me, Shape me , Use me, I'm willing to pay the price no matter what because it's worth it.

You have given to me
More than this world could give
My purpose is found in You

heading home!

yay! A week to go and I'll be heading home to my hometown Brunei and Malaysia! I haven't been home in two years and I'm craving for all the local food , but before that I have to build and iron stomach because the last time I went back, I had a bad stomach for a few days which wasn't good. Another thing I'm looking forward to is shopping :) time to update my fashion and get new clothes, I'm interested to see how the young people dress now compared to two years ago, I'm pretty sure it has changed a lot in Malaysia.. not too sure about Brunei yet lol. Oh how could I not forget to meet up my awesome fans... I mean friends back home, you know who you are ;)

Rockstar Lee Is CoMinG HoMe!

Are you a champion?

These trials are only to test your faith, to show that it is strong and pure. It is being tested as fire tests and purifies gold- and your faith is far more precious to God than mere gold. So if your faith remains strong after being tried by fiery trials, it will bring you much praise and glory and honor on the day when Jesus Christ is reavealed to the whole world. 1 Peter:7 NLT