Even at a time as I'm writing this there is a stirring in my heart to see the current generation and the younger generation to rise up, to carry the mantle to see their city and nation saved. God is doing something in this earth, there is a desperate cry in the heart of people who wants to know the one true God but who is going to bring the good news to them?

Who is willing to rise up and leave a legacy and mark in the lives of the people they meet and talk to?

We are marked by heaven, we are chosen, we are called, we are to shift the atmosphere, are we living that way? Are we caught up by studies, computer games work and assignments? I declare fruitfulness , enough is enough, the drought is over.... I declare that in this time signs and wonders will accompany Your burning ones. Awaken our hearts , stir it in our hearts for a passion for You and Your people. We are hungry and thirsty for more of you Lord, more of you!

Consolation Prize

Definition of Consolation Prize from yourdictionary.com- A prize given to a competitor who loses or does not win the first prize.

Just want to share a lil something I got from work two weeks ago. We are having our annual church and I was fighting very hard at work to try and get my leave approved, because the status has been unknown for a month. Cut the story short, I wanted to for camp so badly, I've never missed one and hearing the good stuffs we'll be getting made me want to go so much more.... but I got a 'I Declined your leave' that left me in tears. Next day at work I got couple of good tips + an email from one of the guest sent to the resort saying how I'm awesome, and the best...........kidding XD but the email was praising me of the work I've done for them and how I've been helpful and they appreciated it. I was like wow! A personal mail praising me! I know it might seem like a small thing to you guys but it was huge for me.... I've been dreaming to have one of those at work and I got it. I was thinking 'mmm... so I don't get to go to the camp but I was blessed at work today.. maybe its a consolation prize for me'

That's how I felt.

Then again I learnt the power of having people people around you believing for a miracle and breakthrough for you when you don't seem to have it. There was no effort for the need to strive and believe believe believe. I know sometimes people say 'You must have faith, you must have faith, you got no faith' and put pressure on the poor person who's already having anxiety to have more. However telling the person that you're believing for a miracle for them puts them at peace... they don't have to fight, they are in faith and they have rest and peace through the storms and that was how I felt. The awesome people around me had faith to believe for me and was praying for me. Don't get me wrong I was praying for it as well but there was no sense of anxiety or any hard effort. (I believe sometimes there are seasons we need to push in as well). Anxiety deflates the greatness of God.

The Last day of work before my weekend and three days before camp I got a call from my manager and asked if I still wanted the weekend off for camp. Apparently one of my colleagues wanted to work and asked my manager and so managed to cover the shift for me. Praise God! God owns everything, and managed to turn the situation around even though it seemed bleak, how cool was that?

Then it hit me. God does not give consolation prize. Those are for people who lose and do not win the first prize. In God's kingdom EVERYONE is a winner in His eyes, He wants the best for His children and His timing is perfect. God does not want to give consolation prize to mock us.... He wants us to keep going for Gold, even though sometimes we fail or feel like losers.

But many who are first will be last, and many who are last will be first. -Matt 19:30
my version of this would say '..... the loser will be the winners'

get a grip

Not feeling the best in the past two weeks, been procrastinating in not applying for my PR when I should have. Stupid thoughts and lies just keep going through my head on what is to come. Little things that shouldn't really matter brought me down. Its one thing to be dreaming for something ,wanting to see it happen and another to get your hands dirty and start doing it. There's no one to be blamed but me. For not taking any responsiblity well, for not stepping up when I should have, for not having the right attitude and character. Seriously I'm so good in complaning that I don't do anything about it.

Jesus, I want to fall in love with you again, you are my breathe, my love my life. Forgive me for the times where I've ran around aimlessly doing my own things which doesn't even benefit and help. I need your strength, I need to rest in the shadow of your wings. Just need one touch from You, daddy. I want to be in that place of surrender again where I give you all my dream, every part of me.

I need a new set of 'tires' because mine is almost worn out :(

5 reasons why people quit ministry...

Read it, love it and got to repost it
Five Reasons Why People Quit The Ministry by Perry Noble

#1 – Burnout
I once heard someone say, “I would rather burn out than rust out.” Uh…BOTH are bad because NEITHER of them finish well. Too many people in the ministry work themselves into a frenzy, never take time to disconnect and refresh and do absolutely nothing for fun…this always goes bad!

When it comes to leadership circles in America we’ve equated being busy with being godly; however, the haunting reality that confronts that idea is what God Himself said in Psalm 46:10, “BE STILL and know that I am God”…not “be busy!”
If we are not taking regular breaks, doing things “just for fun” and disconnecting then burnout isn’t a matter of “if,” but “when!”

#2 – Unrealistic Expectations
Too many people believe that ministry = easy…despite the fact that it seemed to go really bad for everyone in the Scriptures that sold their life out to Him! Jesus went to the “place of the skull” to be crucified…why would we ever believe He would lead us to “the place of the mattress?”

When we impose our plans and ideas on God and refuse to surrender to His…and then things don’t go as planned…it usually leads to people “giving up” because “God just didn’t come through.”

#3 – Criticism
Criticism hurts…it always will…and if it ever doesn’t then, according to my counselor, something is dead inside of you. AND…it is always personal (especially when someone begins with, “don’t take this personally…but…).

You can’t let the critics dicate what you think/feel! If you have a ministry that constantly responds to critics then you will not have one that responds to Jesus. You MUST respond to the people who God has placed in your life to surround you and protect you–that’s not criticism but rather correction. However, you cannot allow those who know you the least to control you the most–period!

#4 – Discouragement
Every church leader I’ve ever chatted with has done some serious battles with discouragement. After your message on Sunday the enemy comes in and begins to accuse you, telling you that you did a pathetic job and that no one is going to come back next week. Heck, I’ve had to battle discouragement during the message before, hearing voices inside of my head saying things like, “you suck, these people hate you…you need to quite the ministry…” and so on.

This is why it is essential for leaders to get in a place like David did in I Samuel 30:1-6…he faced an incredibly discouraging situation and yet someone managed to find His strength in the Lord.
I do this through reading through encouraging letters and emails that I’ve received in the past, placing myself in encouraging environments and focusing on what God’s Word says about me.

#5 – Losing Focus On God’s Power
When we actually believe it is up to us to make people come back to church every week rather than believing we are conduits that God wants to work through to do that very thing…it’s over! Because…we fall into the trap of trying to outdo ourselves every week, every series and every year…and prayer/seeking the Lord becomes something we love to talk about but fail to do. He saves…He draws people…and He uses us to do it. It’s not up to us…but rather allowing Him to work through us to accomplish all that He wants to do!

Face it…on our own we don’t have enough power to blow our nose! We NEED Him…HE is the game changer!!!

'Holiday'

hoboy, its July and we're more than halfway through 2010! Been reflecting on what has happened this year and can't help but smile at how Good God has been this year (His always good) and how much I've been blessed by seeing breakthroughs for not only myself but for my brothers and sisters. Sure there were times of discouragement and even disappointments but I've learnt to not dwell on it too much but learn to put my faith on what is unseen.

I have been to so many 'holidays' this year that it has really brought me to a whole' notha level and I'm excited! When I said 'holidays' I meant Conference's that I've attended.

1. Jesus Culture conference in January!! There's no better way than to start a Conference in the first month of 2010!!!
2. Annual Oceania Convention In April..... Its enouraging to see what God is doing in our movement and the changes we're having
3. Danny Silk conference- Didn't felt like going for this one because of an issue I had to deal with, but like any other people who 'didn't feel' like going but went anyway, God turned up and messed me up =) This was the first time ever that I went through a fire tunnel and the moment I went in, I felt God put a stamped on my heart and I had that assurance that I'm marked by heaven wow!!
4. Upcoming Bill Johnson Kingdom Culture Conference!! BRING IT ON!!!

Just an encouragement that I would love to share with you... ]

We can go for conference, get charged up, pumped, refreshed and come back going "we're going to go and do this and that, vision renewed" but later in the week, discouragement sets in, or u didnt get a great encounter or you get bored and we get disconnected and waiting for the next Church service or conference. Why? Because our connection with God got lost in the middle of the week or during the day. My heart longs to see worshippers that will come to Church and Life group all already connected and ready to soak in the Presence, no longer having to 'strive' in worship like Belle would say 'having Spiritual Constipation errrkkk' ><"" but will be able to press in easily. So keep pressing on and don't lose that connection, learn to even worship and be in His presence at work or class, its possible :)

O Praise Him

I hope facebook doesn't cut out the video I put in my blog, if a video is not showing as usual go to jasonkid87.blogspot.com to watch it.

Wow! This week has been fairly tough for me actually, been a bit dry, started being lazy and all that jazz. But throughout all the tough times, there's only one thing that matters... your connection with God. It was so hard for me to press in. I didn't 'feel' like lifting my hands, I didn't 'feel' to open my mouth or to even open my bible. oh boy, was I wrong, like Jonah I was trying to run away, somehow someway God just brought me into this verse

Psalm 146:1-2 "Praise the Lord, O my soul! While I live I will praise the Lord, I will sing praises to my God while I have my being!"

I love how David says 'WHILE I LIVE' I will praise the Lord.. Wow! its a lifestyle, its your everything, as long as we live, we are commited to Praise His name! To be honest, one flaw I have is that during my own devotional time I would tend to skip 'Praise' and go straight to 'worship' .I'm like yeaaa come on straight into the holy of holies! Boy was I wrong... I have underestimated the power of Praise, Phil Pringle said "Praise opens gates into the presence of God' When you choose to Praise God you're singing on how good God is, what He has done and just that choice of choosing to praise God with your soul when you dont feel like it will bring about freedom, and encourages your spirit to rise up!

The last thing you want is letting the devil silence your mouth and keep you from singing. Don't ever let the devil steal your song, its your key to victory! Whatever is causing you to hang your head down in defeat has been overcomed by the Presence of God in you! so let's start Praising Him! =)

David Crowder Band- O Praise Him

Thoughts

There are so many thoughts running in my head on.....

-The direction of where the Church will be going
-The direction where Gen418 is going
-Whats gonna happen when some of the key people leaves, or will they be staying?
-And if the key people leaves, there's gonna be a huge hole to fill, who is rising up?
-There are some stuffs that is out of our control and we need the Holy Spirit to convict and change.
-Priorities, Balance... Time....
-How much I still have yet to learn, grow and mature.
-The health of the church.
-Whatever happened to us just 'doing life together?'
-We need more locals... especially Aussies.
-My heart yearns to see a Church thats passionate about God, yet being able to love life, love people and having that atmosphere of Faith and purity.

Sorry.... its just me babbling on a fine Friday morning :)

Overwhelmed

These past few days has been a rocky road for me, there's no landslide yet but I can feel it coming, my heart is overwhelmed and starting to feel discouraged (abit). My heart cries out and wonders what is happening? A new burden has risen, to see Men of God to rise up. Not a title of being a 'Man of God' but living that lifestyle where people can look up and say 'wow, his a role-model who inspires me, and I want to be like him' It's been too long now for the Men in church to be sleeping and not live by the calling God has for them. To be created for their original purpose which is to lead n' set a good example. To live the Prov 31:23 life where the women in the kingdom are looking for.

It even hit me when a brother is going through something and I don't even know what to say or what to do for him as I'm not so close, but my heart does feel for him to come back to Papa God. It really saddens me to see people not getting along with one another because of differences, it saddens me to see men liking to keep things for themselves thinking 'its all gonna be ok' but in reality there's a lion in the cage in their heart waiting to be unleashed. Its hard for us men to be transparent not just to our friends but even God??? really? What is happening?? (Don't get me wrong I was like that, a tough nut crack but God 'cracked' me) Its time to get out of the shell.

I'm not and expert at this but the burden for them has becoming stronger every day, and I know I have to make a stand and do something. I was also reminded about a vision someone had for me that they saw me Leading a group of men.... O'Lord help me, I need your strength and wisdom.

please send revival to our hearts,

please raise up a Generation of Men Like David who is after your heart

please raise up a Generation of Men Like Gideon who will be warriors

please raise up a Generation of Men Like Joseph who runs away from temptation and desires purity

please raise up a Generation of Men Like Daniel who have that culture of honor

please raise up a Joshua Generation that is able to lead the people.

More importantly one that models the Character of Jesus and shines forth His Glory.

I pray against the enemy that is putting the men to sleep

break the ego, break the pride, break the insecurities, break our heart

I pray that we will not be silent, its time to get out of our shell....

Give us courage, awaken our heart

Unite us that we may transform the world

resurrected dream

Prayer meeting between me, Jesus, God and the Holy Spirit was so awesome today hahaha. As I was praying and visioning what God has for me, God reminded me about a dream I had before.....seeing Japan be won for Christ. I then said ok " I'll pray for missionaries to go in, church planters, etc. but then God was challenging me... telling me "that was all good but those aren't big enough" Immediately I knew what He meant and I couldn't pray , I was so afraid of praying 'that' particular prayer... was so afraid of being called to do what I will be praying for. In my heart I want to see it come to pass, Its a God-size dream, Its a dream thats in my heart but I wasn't willing to pay the price for it because I was looking at my own limited human limitations.

for a short moment.. I paused and then was reminded of the teachings from Jesus Culture, reminded of Revival, reminded that im not a failure, being like Caleb going 'give me that mountain' ,then supernatural courage came in and I started praying for revival, praying for God to use me, and literally I knew God was asking "are you willing to go?" and I responded just like Isaiah did "Here I am Send me, use me, mould me, break me, to be a vessel to bring revival to the nations" (oh man, what am I getting myself into XD )and man this is huge but I want to see Japan be turned into a Christian Nation.... crazy, I know.... Impossible... with man yes, but not with God. there are so many things I can say about this dream I have for the nation but thats saving it for another time.

The Point is this.... I was afraid of taking risk, I was afraid of praying that prayer, praying for that dream because somehow I had a thought 'I cant do this, how can God use me'. I've learnt (and its true) that many men forsake their dreams because they aren't willing to take risk , or fear they arent up to the challenge, or know the desires in their hearts are good. We men have become complacent, lazy, wheres the courage, where are the risk-takers? we don't fight for the desires in us.....

HOW??? Is the big question we would ask but thats God's deparment not ours, we are to respond with a willing heart and God can use your life empowered to shake cities, to release a cry of outpouring of His spirit on the nations. the question is not 'how' but 'are you willing? willing to fight for that Dream that God has placed in you?' Start to believe God for the impossible.

2010 : Dreams- Moving ahead

There are so many things we all want to do in 2010, we say its a brand new start of the year, we are looking ahead to the great things that are about to come, no doubt about that, but there are times especially for me after the 1st or 2nd month the vision starts to die, the dream starts to fade.
Here are some things to help you kick start the year 2010

• Think positive thoughts - I love it how David says that God is our refuge and strength, always ready to help in times of trouble (Psalm 46:10) Negativity is from the devil, don't listen to it. Heck, even the devil would tempt Jesus on His identity in Luke saying "IF you are the son of God...."
  
• Forget things from the past - forget what has happened and look ahead, its a new day! and of course we need God's help for that. (Isaiah 43:18) Forget the former thing,do not dwell on the past!
  
• Visualize your dream - (Isaiah 43:19) See, I am doing a new thing! Do you not see it? The dream, the rhema word God spoke to you many years ago, or just last year or even 10 years ago. Start believing and visualizing it, know that God is good and His promise will come to pass. The dream and vision may start dying and fading of now, but its time to resurrect that dream, to believe in His promise. I bet whenever Abraham sees the stars he would remember God's promises. Oh and also Set goals and clear steps towards it!
  
• Give thanks and Praise continually to God! - Even if you haven't receive the promise, Give thanks! again I love how David in Psalm 103: 1-2(NLT) saying Praise the Lord, I tell myself, with my whole heart, I will praise his holy name......(v2) ......and never forget the good things he does for me. Remember that God is good and the good things he has done though the good times and bad times. Know that discouragement and disappointment are opportunity for miracles.
  
• Pray Pray Pray! - When you pray.. you're confessing with your mouth on what God had said. Praying also lifts up your faith, pray in a way that your faith will be lifted up just as the first time you got your rhema word. Start praying for the things you have stop praying for. As Bill Johnson said "Pray that God will resurrect prayers and promises"

What am I believing for? There are many things I'm believing for but one thing for sure is for my awesome Life group Acts29 to grow, multiply and be and influence!! (and through that the Church can grow!) I'm believing that this year I can be a leader, one that has a heart of humilty to serve, care and influence. I'm boldly saying it because I know God has spoken to me ,I'm seeing myself just how God would see me, through God's eyes not my eyes =)

I'm believing for my sheeps (ok I never really like the term sheep)*coughs* the people I'm taking care of for spiritual growth and to be Men of God and that they too can leave a legacy

I've only shared this with a couple of people but this is the promise that God had for me mid last year during my prayer times as I was dreaming of doing great things for God and of revival. The Lord told me 'Be a person of destiny that will leave a legacy' (thus my blog heading) God was challenging me to give all of me for all of Him, because I've learnt that a great calling comes with a great price and that may involve more time off the computer and more time praying, fasting, and reading the Word, wow *sweats* bring it on! I challenge you all to live the destiny that God has called you to :)

Okay there are other things but I think I've rambled on enough.... XD

EepppppYYYY Neeewwwwww YYaaahhhhh!!!!

Breakthrough

Man, I'm in need of a breakthrough. Like a big one. God has been speaking to me in doing something and I tried before but failed. So i'm gonna try doing it again after Christmas. It's gonna be a challenge but if I want to see myself move in some areas and have victory in some areas then I'll obey what God has prompted me to do just as Luke 4

Power!!!! Vrooomm Vrooom!!! (if you were there you would understand this hehe)

on a side note

There's Christmas Evax coming up this Wednesday (16th) if you're interested, we'll be going out to the streets giving out candy cane and telling people the true meaning of Christmas (fun!) I believe christmas is a season of eGiving (extra giving) and we should go out there give what we can and most people out there needs love, care and hope even now because its shocking but people do get lonely during christmas

Then we'll be having christmas party next Wednesday (23rd) at my place, so pls do come because there'll be lots of goodies, me making ice cream cake, and gift swapping :)

oh and Christmas Service (20th) this Sunday!! Don't Miss out!

2009 >>>> 2010

Is it just me or did I now only realised its December!!! 2009 is ending soon and seriously time flies really fast this year especially when you start working.

Compared to 2008, 2009 was good... the first 3 months of 2009 was probably a struggle but thank God He helped me pull through and move ahead. I've definately gone to another level now ( played to many games hahaha.. ok lame.. hope u got the joke). This year I've gone deeper in my worship with God and my relationship with Him. Not only have I grown Spiritually but in my character as well, people have been commenting on how much I've grown Spiritually and in my leadership... im so encouraged! Praise God! I know my character still stinks but seeing the stinky Jason before and the stinky Jason now I don't stink as much :) There are of course bad times, storms that do come in and times where I've struggled but I know its not the time to give in, not the time to give up but to continue to move forward and look on whats ahead, trusting in His Grace.

alot of people has been asking me...'Jason!!!! do you have a girlfriend yet!!??' Hahaha no I haven't and I'm not planning to make that my goal next year either... and friends back home please don't call me Gay! eh guys I'm only 22 ok,still young, single and ready to mingle.... kiddin XD.seriously though I feel I still have a lot to grow in and things to focus other than that, besides I don't need one, I'm married to Ministry hahaha. The special someone is somewhere out there I know, I know in God's timing it will come to pass =)

I'm also excited that its not just me but EVERY single individual in church has risen this year and I can see how everyone has a role in God's kingdom and the impact they'll be making!

Really stoked on the upcoming 2010, with confidence I know that God IS going to do greater things in my life and the church. It isn't just me but many of us has said its a time of preparation now, getting in the word and build our wells so when the semester starts, I feel that the harvest is just going to come in and come in till we don't have time to prepare for ourselves because we'll be giving, teaching and disciplin :) aweeesoooomeeeee

"May the fire in you continue to burn, so bright and strong that it'll be infectious..."

very encouraged

We had life group yesterday and I was leading praise and worship. It was tough to play and sing at the same time especially when you're not naturally a good singer and musician haha.

Praise God after lots of praying and practicing it turned out good, not only musicially but the presence of God was there :) After life group I was sending one of my cool sister (and my backup singer) Paula home and she said 'I really like your singing Jason, today you sounded different, was different than practice, and I think she was 'wow' by it in a good way. I was very encouraged and touched when I heard that *cries* I mean this is coming from a person who was in the school choir its like Michael Jordan just said 'you can make it to the NBA' and your heart just beats 500bpm because of that one word

of course I know I have LOTS to improve on in my singing but that word itself really encouraged me and even my LG leader said PnW was good. I don't really get this much,the last I got was from my music teacher few years back (07) when she said that I have a good voice but need to work on my pitch. that really meant a lot to me lolz.
I've learnt one thing though... its easy to give encouragement and honor to someone you can relate with, how about someone that annoys you and someone that is so bad that you want to distance yourself and protect yourself from them so you won't cry, be hurt or whatever negative thoughts there are? Remember God Holds All things together (Col 1:17) and if your relationship with that person seems falling apart and you can't hold on to it, remember God holds all things together, He is that bridge that will bring the gap smaller therefore decide to love and honor that person just right infront of you....see them as how God sees them, the destiny they have, see them as who they will be and not who they are now.

Okay I dunoo why I started writing that part, the plan was just to tell you guys about the pnw session lolz. maybe its God :)

ohhh and let me let you in a secret ...*I've started writing a diary* Not princess diary but its the Prince diary HAHAHAHHAHA okay Jason you're lame shaddap now

one of those small God moments :)

Just want to share one funny ‘God moment’ I had today...

I was driving on my way to work and was listening to one of Bill Johnson’s sermon and he was preaching something on Jesus being baptized and then the spirit descending on Him like a Dove further later in the sermon he came to the verse on Luke where it says "The Spirit of the Lord is on me, because he has anointed me to preach good news to the poor." Suddenly on the podcast he asked everyone to pray for the Sprit of the Lord to fall on us with a greater anointing, that will blow us away etcetc and as I was driving and praying I don’t know why but I looked to the van on my right lane and on the back of the van it has two doves with the writing ‘Dove Released’

I can’t help but smile at this ‘God moment’ and its as if God was confirming to me that it is done but God was filling me with not just an anointing but double portion (the two doves?) hahaha. Don't you love it when you have those moments? God is Good :)

But God..

Ps Lance and Belle are off to Redding, California for the School of Prophets conference in Bill Johnson’s awesome church. It’s very encouraging to hear the amazing things that has happened during the conference and even managed to get in touch with Kris Vallotton who im sure will be coming to visit us sometime next year, an amazing prophet of God i’ve heard!

I am excited to see everyone in church growing in maturity and intheir gifting in God, everyone is running after Him and im even amazed at the amount of faith the young ones are having. This shows that we are all going to a whole new level and are ready for the Harvest that God has prepared for us! Other than that because Ps Lance and Belle are away Ps Gary from COC came and preached to us and is God amazing or what? 3 days before Church service, I was actually praying and fasting for direction for the Church and myself and one thing that God spoke to me was ‘The vision that God has given us is dead, speak life to it and I’ll breathe life to it, prophecy to it.’ Which was from Ezekiel 37:4 Some of the visions and dreams that God had for me was dead, I didn’t believe in it because there wasn’t fruit or rather, its dead and once its dead its dead. However I began to speak life to it, prophecy the visions and dreams God has for me...

Funny enough on Sunday, Ps Gary was preaching about ‘Barrenness’ and how God wants to give us an increase in believing what God has installed for us and at the end he started asking us to speak life to the part of our life that is barren and I was like ...’Wow God, confirmation on what He was speaking to me 3 days ago! How cool is that?’

Some of us might be barren in our family, because they’re not saved yet, some have financial barrenness, marriage barrenness, study or relationship barrenness but whatever you’re going through I want to encourage you to trust God even in the midst of unfruitfulness and start believing and take unbelief our from your life. because unbelief is from the devil, and if we have unbelief we’re partnering with the devil. I think it’s no coincidence what God has revealed to me and to the church on Sunday about this particular area and I want to share this little gem that I got from God to you guys. Remember, don’t look in the natural thinking its impossible... it was impossible for Hannah to have a child but God gave her one, it was impossible for Nehemiah to complete the walls in 52 days but God gave them the strength to finish it, it was impossible for Elizabeth to have a child because she was barren but God gave them a child!!! Gideon only had 300 men to face thousands and thousands of enemies but God gave them victory. Remember... in the supernatural God can do anything... BUT GOD!!

Not many people know this song, but its an awesome song from one of my fav band, CCC

The road is long
The valley's deep
The ocean's wide
In front of me

But God saved the day
Jesus You're the way
The truth, the light, the hope for all mankind

But God saves the day

The One with the Promotion

I got a call from my manager at work today and she said she needs to have a chat with me. I began thinking 'uh-oh' was it because of the request I've asked for the past week on not being able to work on Wed and Sunday because of Church and about the Mission Trip stuffs I'm going to have? Bad thoughts begin to hit me and I just thought 'okok, God if I do get scolded or told off, pls give me strength to not cry but accept it.' *took a deep breath* went in and see her, and she told me to sit down.

'Jason you're not supposed to wear necklaces at work, pls take it off.'

In my head I was thinking of phew, just that.

'also.... as you know Julia is promoted to Guest Service Manager, and there's an empty slot in Front Office Receptionist, I was thinking you'll do well in that role and was wondering if you would like to work in the front office.' Man! without thinking, I said YES!!! haha.

Honestly, I wouldn't expect to get promoted so quickly, considering I just worked here for 3 weeks and had one accident in valet parking last week. It's pretty exciting that I can work in front office because that has been my goal and prayer even before I got landed a job here. I told God "I don't want housekeeping or food and beverage, I want to work in the front office' and I know its hard seeing most of the Front office people are always women and I don't know I feel like I'm the first guy ever to be in the front office in this resort I'm working in!

I know at the end of the day it was God's favor, His provision and blessings. One thing I would like to share was how in the 5 months of not being able to get a job and working on a measely 9 hours a week in McD, I had just enough to cover for food and rent but not enough for life. I was struggling, my bank acc was running low and people would ask me to go out and I would say no because I don't have money. Even tithing and giving my 10% was a big challenge, I did give my 10% every week but one Sunday all I had was $20 in my wallet and my 10% was $10. I tried asking people if they had change but none of them did and during tithing ,I was still deciding if I wanted to give all I had which was my $20 in my wallet, but God reminded me of the verse

“‘Bring all the tithes into the storehouse, that there may be food in My house, and try Me now in this,’ says the LORD of hosts, ‘If I will not open for you the windows of heaven and pour out for you such blessing that there will not be room enough to receive it. And I will rebuke the devourer for your sakes, so that he will not destroy the fruit of your ground, nor shall the vine fail to bear fruit for you in the field,’ says the LORD of hosts” (Mal. 3:10-11).

I took a deep breath and prayed to God that I won't give my tithe just because I had to give, but I want to give with a good heart, knowing that the money will be used for His kingdom and knowing God will provide. True enough a week later I got my concierge job and 3 weeks later, I have this promotion :D I mean c-mon!! Here I am all new to the workplace, and there are people who has worked here for years and I got it? It's definately God and I believe its the same in workplace as church when you have a willing heart to serve and learn and grow then God will definately raise you up.

I believe that tithing our 10% is really important, it's God testing our faithfulness and how we are stewards with our money, and I like how Kong hee puts it that tithing qualifies or disqualifies us from God's wealth and abundance. Its amazing how God says that the Devourer will be rubuked and God will protect our finances from being 'eaten away'.

Is this a prosperity message? *gasps* jeng jeng jeng. I guess it is, because I was never a strong and firm believer in God blessing me abundantly, I was afraid to ask, I was thinking that I would be selfish and God would get angry. God had to break my heart and get me out of my shell to believe God for greater things. God does want to bless us, but there must be a balance as well, because its not all about blessing me me me but with God blessing us, we can be a blessing to the Church and the people we have in our lives, thus I want to encourage you to 'Try God' now and believe for God's blessings in your life!

Well I'm not offically promoted yet, because they have to find somebody to cover my spot but Praise God ey?!! =P

Getaway

I have a problem that is very unhealthy and that is comparing myself to other people. When I see what others that are close to me are achieving it, and how they are changing and moving forward, I would look at myself and see what a rotten scum I am. I know its very unhealthy and we all have our own individual races thus there’s no particular reason why I have to compare myself to others, I know I should be happy when my brothers and sisters are growing and thank God for His work at their lives. I guess it’s the ‘kiasu’ person in me to want to be the best, to want to be better than other people but that’s stupid because there’s always someone better than you/me. Okay, i’ve identified the problem now I need God grace to work in this area of my life...

On a brighter note, we had our Joshua Generation life group getaway 2 days ago. It was just a day to celebrate and thank God for what He has done in Acts29 and planning for the next 6 months. We also set a time just to thank and appreciate everyone individually which is good because we don’t really get to do that much. I was blown away, touched and really humbled what the ppl in my group were thanking me for. I just never knew the little or big stuffs that I did had made some sort of an impact in their lives. I never knew how my passion for God is that contagious and ppl are encouraged by it, I never knew (and still don’t understand) how I’m a trailblazer, I was also encouraged when they say I’ve taken the transition for a boy to becoming a Man hahah, I was encouraged that they can see how I’ve grown spiritually as well ,although that is still a learning and growing process. There were a lot more but I really can’t remember all of them -.-

Honestly though, I’ve never given much thought on what I did will have an impact in ppl’s lives, Maybe because I just don’t spend so much time reflecting on what I do but I just do it and not dwell on it. I really really appreciate and thank for the wonderful people I have in x29 because at the end of the day its them that has made a difference in my life J

Take all of me....

One thing that Belle preached last Sunday really strucked me was how when she first became a Christian, she was so on fire for God that she would do Anything at all for God! She then begin to start a prayer meeting in her workplace immediately, the top people from management would even come for the prayer meeting!! How cool is that? Funny thing was she said looking back now it was kinda embarassing but aren't we like that?

I became a Christian when I was a youth at a youth camp, I remembered the time when I first felt the Love of God and gave my life to him. I would then walk about 40min under the hot sun every saturday to youth group B because my parents was working. That was how hungry and thirsty I was to encounter God. I remembered to want to preach in my own youth group A right away, and want to inspire and impact the lives of the youth because of what we encountered during camp. I even wrote it down ready to preach and asked the person in charge if I could do it.. obviously he said no because I was still a 'youth' and 'young'. I remembered I would do anything as well! I would tell off my parents that God can Heal and you dont need to buy medicines, I would then always find opportunity to tell my friends about Jesus.

Don't get me wrong, I'm still doing that but God is reminding me again my first love, my first passion for Him and to live a different life from who I was. God was convicting me that we would do those because we had childlike faith, we believe that God can do anything through us, because as we are more mature in age we would tend to give reasons like 'ooh, that person has a very hard heart, oh... I can't speak to someone not from my culture, oooh I'm afraid to go and ask that person if I can pray for healing for him' where was that? I would do that when I was a youth "not saying I'm old =P " but yea God was reminding me that passion I had for him and wants to stir that fire in me again.

Lord take all of me for all of you.

Give me a childlike faith..

One that will believe your word , never doubts and questions but would obey wholeheartedly

The things which are impossible with men are possible with God. —Luke 18:27

2 (mini) miracles at work today!

It might seem little to you guys but this miracle is huge for me.

First miracle was before I started work. My boss called me to see if I can swap my shift on Saturday to Friday and that itself was a miracle because we have prayer meeting on Saturday (Never ever gonna miss that) and we have our Acts29 JG getaway which I really want to attend because we'll be talking and planning for our life group for the next 5 months and I wanted to be part of it. It has been in my heart to really want to go but I never did pray for it but my heart did desire for i. Praise God that He moved and turned the whole situation around so I could go for prayer meeting and our getaway!

Anyway... going back to work, it was the first time I really screwed up in my job. I had to do a valet park and this wasn't a car, it was a van and its really high because it has this bag holder thing on top of the van. I didn't notice it at first until I went to the second level and I started to hear scrapping noise. Got out of the car quickly and found out that I made a hole to the bag holder thing O_O Last I heard, a concierge at my workplace scrapped the paint of the side door of a car and the customer wasn't impressed.. I can imagine what I'll get for this. I was like omgoshhh what am I going to do... but then the Holy Spirit quickly reminded me that I always break down when bad situation comes and I'm not acting how a Christian should live. I then took a deep breath, said a short prayer and know that what done is done , I know the large hole won't miraculously fix itself so I just trusted God that His grace will be with me and I'll not get yelled at.

I quickly told the manager so she could take care of it, then went for a break (and so I can hide away, just in case) came back 30min later, my manager told me
'It was okay, everyone makes mistakes, we're all human :)
....and you're really lucky because the guest SPECIFICALLY told us not give you a hard time because everyone makes mistakes. The guest was pretty nice about it, you're very lucky because 9 out of 10 guest would get mad.' I'm like 'WOW!' Thank You GOD!!! How great and awesome is He?? Amazingly the guest is okay with it and that's all that matters. My manager understood the situation and she was pretty cool about it as well. I'm really thankful to have a good manager as well because usually when things go sour, most supervisors I work with will start to swear and go haywire lol. Actually I think my manager couldn't even believe the guest was okay with it especially when I heard this was the 3rd time this has happened.... I wanted to share that it was God's grace but I was abit emmm... not comfortable and abit scared at the mometn because its just my 2nd week, but I do hope that they can see that God's Favor is in me.

So yeah, in the end I don't have to pay the damages because luckily enough the hotel covers for all the damages.... phew.

Work has been good so far, got commented by my manager that I'm doing 'exceptionally well' and when I asked for any improvements she said 'nope, you're doing good, its a learning process where we learn as we do things and you handled all the pressures well, good job!'

Apologies if this post seems a bit messy, I just got back from work and I need to go sleep now because in 8 hours I'll be working again lol.

Jesus Culture.....

We are therefore Christ's ambassadors......

I got this revelation from God a week ago when this came up from a conversation with a friend, and from this revelation came with another awesome revelation. So what was it?

It's culture.... it's the way we speak, act and behave. Its taking a transition from our culture to Jesus Culture.
As a Malaysian one of our favorite quote is 'DIE LAHH' Whenever something bad happens our first reaction is 'DIE LAHHHH'
or when when someone offended us we go 'That person ahh.... He @#$# this and that....... you know what he say....&^%&^ I cannot tahan him you know'
or how about driving and parking?
'waaaa tat $%# took my car park!!!! *&^*&^ tat driver so lousy'
Well that's one of the few of malaysian culture..
Maybe for the Western culture is that they love being sarcasatic? (I'm guessing)

I think you get what I'm trying to say here. Point is... God was challening me that
If I'm representing Christ...
If I'm called to be salt and light and to make an influence of the world then there has to be a standard. That standard is not of the worlds but of God. We stand on our convictions knowing what we believe in. Standard of convictions, standard of truths all from the Bible. Even also not following what other Christians are doing, because not all the time what they're doing are beneficial... its not wrong but not beneficial. So God was challenging me to get into His word, know the truth, get the convictions in and defend it, because those are the foundations that will help build me up and help build others.

So when bad circumstances happens instead of going what us Malaysians would always do like 'Die lahhh, no chance' we bring in the Jesus Culture and go 'Its ok, God is in control.. I trust Him' Imagine what your friends would think with those two different reactions?? Because AT THAT MOMENT.... you can either influence or be the same as the world and not make a difference. Which is it going to be? Thats an opportunity right there.

Prayer Meeting was so awesome yesterday and God was just confirming it through what Pastor Lance was sharing... He was giving the same example like 'When someone badmouthes a person, then are you going to join in and go 'Yeah!! That person is like a cow, He cant do his work well ...etcetcetc' or you can go 'Mmmm I know his like that but I want to pray for him and believe he can change' WOW!!! Is that awesome or what? Lance was then sharing about being imitators of God.. in our speech, in our character... its just basically what God was sharing with me for the past week bringing Jesus Culture in!!

Man, I'm so convicted and challenged to live in a whole notha' level......

Jesus help me then to develop Godly Biblical standards in my life for your glory