But God..

Ps Lance and Belle are off to Redding, California for the School of Prophets conference in Bill Johnson’s awesome church. It’s very encouraging to hear the amazing things that has happened during the conference and even managed to get in touch with Kris Vallotton who im sure will be coming to visit us sometime next year, an amazing prophet of God i’ve heard!

I am excited to see everyone in church growing in maturity and intheir gifting in God, everyone is running after Him and im even amazed at the amount of faith the young ones are having. This shows that we are all going to a whole new level and are ready for the Harvest that God has prepared for us! Other than that because Ps Lance and Belle are away Ps Gary from COC came and preached to us and is God amazing or what? 3 days before Church service, I was actually praying and fasting for direction for the Church and myself and one thing that God spoke to me was ‘The vision that God has given us is dead, speak life to it and I’ll breathe life to it, prophecy to it.’ Which was from Ezekiel 37:4 Some of the visions and dreams that God had for me was dead, I didn’t believe in it because there wasn’t fruit or rather, its dead and once its dead its dead. However I began to speak life to it, prophecy the visions and dreams God has for me...

Funny enough on Sunday, Ps Gary was preaching about ‘Barrenness’ and how God wants to give us an increase in believing what God has installed for us and at the end he started asking us to speak life to the part of our life that is barren and I was like ...’Wow God, confirmation on what He was speaking to me 3 days ago! How cool is that?’

Some of us might be barren in our family, because they’re not saved yet, some have financial barrenness, marriage barrenness, study or relationship barrenness but whatever you’re going through I want to encourage you to trust God even in the midst of unfruitfulness and start believing and take unbelief our from your life. because unbelief is from the devil, and if we have unbelief we’re partnering with the devil. I think it’s no coincidence what God has revealed to me and to the church on Sunday about this particular area and I want to share this little gem that I got from God to you guys. Remember, don’t look in the natural thinking its impossible... it was impossible for Hannah to have a child but God gave her one, it was impossible for Nehemiah to complete the walls in 52 days but God gave them the strength to finish it, it was impossible for Elizabeth to have a child because she was barren but God gave them a child!!! Gideon only had 300 men to face thousands and thousands of enemies but God gave them victory. Remember... in the supernatural God can do anything... BUT GOD!!

Not many people know this song, but its an awesome song from one of my fav band, CCC

The road is long
The valley's deep
The ocean's wide
In front of me

But God saved the day
Jesus You're the way
The truth, the light, the hope for all mankind

But God saves the day

Disappointed....

Urgh Kaleidoscope people are having ice skating right now as I'm writing this. I so wanted to be there to have fun, chill and meet new people but I'm stuck here working and what makes matter worse was the time I got my roster for the next two weeks. I'll be working from today till next Thursday 7 days in a row which is gonna suck the life out of me. On top of that I don't have Wednesdays off for my Life Group, acts29. It was so good being there last wed seeing how the group has grown from 5 to 19 people only by God's grace and still growing. It was really great worshipping and having discussions together. I really hope I can swap my shift on Wednesday.

I'm still praying and believing for God to change the situation..... actually he did one time when my manager asked if I would like to work 4 days instead of 5 days so I can get Wednesdays off but because of Pressure from work and money I said No....... Stupid me, but partly in me was hoping God would do something, and well it kinda happened as a position for night audit had opened. Through this something came into my mind... If I have Friday off every week maybe...Just Mayybbbeee I can Pioneer a Life group for Friday! I don't know haha just came into my mind, still praying about it.

Through All this I know that I should not look at the disappointment but look that there is an opportunity for miracles! Remember 'Hope deferred makes the heart sick... ' Prov 13:12 =)

Inspiring Quotes =P

My no:1 Fan Potato is upset because theres a lack of updates in this blog. Jez fer yoh ill update! Hmph! X(

Actually I’m typing this at work again but I was so bored I decided to rummage through my drawer and I found this 2008 Calender and it has some quotes at the bottom of everyday of the month and it brought a smile to my face =) So those who are emo and sad here’s a little something for you =)

• So many of us use the expression ‘Better late than never’ A qualification: Too late is the same as never
  
• The worst thing about history is that everytime it repeats itself, the Price goes up
  
• A meeting consists a group of people who have little to say..... until after the meeting
  
• If two men agree on everything, you may be sure that one of them is doing the thinking.
  
• If everybody is thinking alike, then something isn’t thinking.
  
• Some people talk in their sleep, Lecturers talk while other people sleep.
  
• Computers are useless.. they can only give you answers
  
  And I love this one by Mother Theresa
  ‘Kind words can be short and easy to speak, but their echoes are truly endless.

Have a blessed day :)

Will update soon

Im still recuperating from the Darwin Mission Trip. Had 10 hours of sleep yesterday to make up for the 4 hours of sleep I had when I got back and had to work the same day, good thing I survived. Darwin was really different and in some ways doesn't feel like Aus at all if you know what I mean, it smells, feels a lot like Malaysia and the place is really laid back and relax, Darwin is really a special city. I really took a lot out from the Mission Trip and got to see how God had moved in our Mission Trip. This was really a special time for the team and my sister Gwee whos starting a life group there. One thing I got during our prayer meeting was God was asking what are we expecting? Do we want to go to just do 'Missions' or do something great and be History Makers? Well we finally broke new ground, saw 3 souls saved, did street preaching, and had our first ever Hope Darwin Life Group (soon Church! lets believe together)! Praise God! I've been challenged a lot personally and honestly it was good to get away from work relax a bit and reflect abit on my life. Good thing I did that because now I see the flaws and weaknesses I have and where I stand in my walk with God and how I can improve.

I'm really not in the mood for blogging at the moment but will definately blog about it once I got the pics and videos :)

pre-Mission Trip

2 days to go before I'm leaving for Darwin for the mission trip, honestly I was so ready to go last week but this week was just a bit meh for me. I don't feel ready, I don't feel confident and prepared. Many stuffs has happened to my friends and myself personally which just sucks. I'm okay, just need some time seeking God and praying. I think not just me but I reckon most of the team aren't ready as we should be but I hope that we won't go there for nothing but really expect God to move because it is a very important mission trip as we're going to break new ground in just 4 days. I know its definately the enemy trying to bring us down but we're not going down because we're going to stand firm on our faith and moving forward in Faith. It's not easy but when we come to the place of surrendering and being broken to God, that's where we find times of refreshing and our spirit filled again.

I'm actually writing this at work haha. Just got back with helping a lady clean up a dirty mess her husband just did. HE PUKED ON THE CORRIDOR!! ewww me and my manager were all dry reaching and it was just so hard for us to even get close, the smell was so bad, the tomatoes and rice were all over the floor...... I'm not sure if I can go have my dinner later -_-

The One with the Promotion

I got a call from my manager at work today and she said she needs to have a chat with me. I began thinking 'uh-oh' was it because of the request I've asked for the past week on not being able to work on Wed and Sunday because of Church and about the Mission Trip stuffs I'm going to have? Bad thoughts begin to hit me and I just thought 'okok, God if I do get scolded or told off, pls give me strength to not cry but accept it.' *took a deep breath* went in and see her, and she told me to sit down.

'Jason you're not supposed to wear necklaces at work, pls take it off.'

In my head I was thinking of phew, just that.

'also.... as you know Julia is promoted to Guest Service Manager, and there's an empty slot in Front Office Receptionist, I was thinking you'll do well in that role and was wondering if you would like to work in the front office.' Man! without thinking, I said YES!!! haha.

Honestly, I wouldn't expect to get promoted so quickly, considering I just worked here for 3 weeks and had one accident in valet parking last week. It's pretty exciting that I can work in front office because that has been my goal and prayer even before I got landed a job here. I told God "I don't want housekeeping or food and beverage, I want to work in the front office' and I know its hard seeing most of the Front office people are always women and I don't know I feel like I'm the first guy ever to be in the front office in this resort I'm working in!

I know at the end of the day it was God's favor, His provision and blessings. One thing I would like to share was how in the 5 months of not being able to get a job and working on a measely 9 hours a week in McD, I had just enough to cover for food and rent but not enough for life. I was struggling, my bank acc was running low and people would ask me to go out and I would say no because I don't have money. Even tithing and giving my 10% was a big challenge, I did give my 10% every week but one Sunday all I had was $20 in my wallet and my 10% was $10. I tried asking people if they had change but none of them did and during tithing ,I was still deciding if I wanted to give all I had which was my $20 in my wallet, but God reminded me of the verse

“‘Bring all the tithes into the storehouse, that there may be food in My house, and try Me now in this,’ says the LORD of hosts, ‘If I will not open for you the windows of heaven and pour out for you such blessing that there will not be room enough to receive it. And I will rebuke the devourer for your sakes, so that he will not destroy the fruit of your ground, nor shall the vine fail to bear fruit for you in the field,’ says the LORD of hosts” (Mal. 3:10-11).

I took a deep breath and prayed to God that I won't give my tithe just because I had to give, but I want to give with a good heart, knowing that the money will be used for His kingdom and knowing God will provide. True enough a week later I got my concierge job and 3 weeks later, I have this promotion :D I mean c-mon!! Here I am all new to the workplace, and there are people who has worked here for years and I got it? It's definately God and I believe its the same in workplace as church when you have a willing heart to serve and learn and grow then God will definately raise you up.

I believe that tithing our 10% is really important, it's God testing our faithfulness and how we are stewards with our money, and I like how Kong hee puts it that tithing qualifies or disqualifies us from God's wealth and abundance. Its amazing how God says that the Devourer will be rubuked and God will protect our finances from being 'eaten away'.

Is this a prosperity message? *gasps* jeng jeng jeng. I guess it is, because I was never a strong and firm believer in God blessing me abundantly, I was afraid to ask, I was thinking that I would be selfish and God would get angry. God had to break my heart and get me out of my shell to believe God for greater things. God does want to bless us, but there must be a balance as well, because its not all about blessing me me me but with God blessing us, we can be a blessing to the Church and the people we have in our lives, thus I want to encourage you to 'Try God' now and believe for God's blessings in your life!

Well I'm not offically promoted yet, because they have to find somebody to cover my spot but Praise God ey?!! =P

World of Warcraft movie!!

From correspondents in Los Angeles, Reuters

ACCLAIMED director Sam Raimi has been hired to make a movie based on the role-playing fantasy video game World of Warcraft, entertainment industry press reports said today.
Raimi, best known for directing the trilogy of blockbuster Spider-Man superhero movies as well as classic 1981 horror film The Evil Dead, will shoot the film after completing work on Spider-Man 4, Daily Variety said. World of Warcraft is a multiplayer online role-playing game developed by Southern California company Blizzard Entertainment and set in a fantasy world featuring monsters, humans, zombies and magical lands. The franchise was first launched in 1994 and currently has more than 11 million monthly subscribers worldwide, holding the Guinness World Record for most-subscribed multiplayer online game.

Okay.... most of us knows most movies that based on novels or games tend to suck, however this director had a lot of good movies in his repertoire. Finger cross that he won't mess up this movie... seriously. I'm a big fan of Warcraft (although I've quitted DOTA) I still would like to watch a movie based on it so its gonna be interesting >=)

Getaway

I have a problem that is very unhealthy and that is comparing myself to other people. When I see what others that are close to me are achieving it, and how they are changing and moving forward, I would look at myself and see what a rotten scum I am. I know its very unhealthy and we all have our own individual races thus there’s no particular reason why I have to compare myself to others, I know I should be happy when my brothers and sisters are growing and thank God for His work at their lives. I guess it’s the ‘kiasu’ person in me to want to be the best, to want to be better than other people but that’s stupid because there’s always someone better than you/me. Okay, i’ve identified the problem now I need God grace to work in this area of my life...

On a brighter note, we had our Joshua Generation life group getaway 2 days ago. It was just a day to celebrate and thank God for what He has done in Acts29 and planning for the next 6 months. We also set a time just to thank and appreciate everyone individually which is good because we don’t really get to do that much. I was blown away, touched and really humbled what the ppl in my group were thanking me for. I just never knew the little or big stuffs that I did had made some sort of an impact in their lives. I never knew how my passion for God is that contagious and ppl are encouraged by it, I never knew (and still don’t understand) how I’m a trailblazer, I was also encouraged when they say I’ve taken the transition for a boy to becoming a Man hahah, I was encouraged that they can see how I’ve grown spiritually as well ,although that is still a learning and growing process. There were a lot more but I really can’t remember all of them -.-

Honestly though, I’ve never given much thought on what I did will have an impact in ppl’s lives, Maybe because I just don’t spend so much time reflecting on what I do but I just do it and not dwell on it. I really really appreciate and thank for the wonderful people I have in x29 because at the end of the day its them that has made a difference in my life J

Take all of me....

One thing that Belle preached last Sunday really strucked me was how when she first became a Christian, she was so on fire for God that she would do Anything at all for God! She then begin to start a prayer meeting in her workplace immediately, the top people from management would even come for the prayer meeting!! How cool is that? Funny thing was she said looking back now it was kinda embarassing but aren't we like that?

I became a Christian when I was a youth at a youth camp, I remembered the time when I first felt the Love of God and gave my life to him. I would then walk about 40min under the hot sun every saturday to youth group B because my parents was working. That was how hungry and thirsty I was to encounter God. I remembered to want to preach in my own youth group A right away, and want to inspire and impact the lives of the youth because of what we encountered during camp. I even wrote it down ready to preach and asked the person in charge if I could do it.. obviously he said no because I was still a 'youth' and 'young'. I remembered I would do anything as well! I would tell off my parents that God can Heal and you dont need to buy medicines, I would then always find opportunity to tell my friends about Jesus.

Don't get me wrong, I'm still doing that but God is reminding me again my first love, my first passion for Him and to live a different life from who I was. God was convicting me that we would do those because we had childlike faith, we believe that God can do anything through us, because as we are more mature in age we would tend to give reasons like 'ooh, that person has a very hard heart, oh... I can't speak to someone not from my culture, oooh I'm afraid to go and ask that person if I can pray for healing for him' where was that? I would do that when I was a youth "not saying I'm old =P " but yea God was reminding me that passion I had for him and wants to stir that fire in me again.

Lord take all of me for all of you.

Give me a childlike faith..

One that will believe your word , never doubts and questions but would obey wholeheartedly

The things which are impossible with men are possible with God. —Luke 18:27

2 (mini) miracles at work today!

It might seem little to you guys but this miracle is huge for me.

First miracle was before I started work. My boss called me to see if I can swap my shift on Saturday to Friday and that itself was a miracle because we have prayer meeting on Saturday (Never ever gonna miss that) and we have our Acts29 JG getaway which I really want to attend because we'll be talking and planning for our life group for the next 5 months and I wanted to be part of it. It has been in my heart to really want to go but I never did pray for it but my heart did desire for i. Praise God that He moved and turned the whole situation around so I could go for prayer meeting and our getaway!

Anyway... going back to work, it was the first time I really screwed up in my job. I had to do a valet park and this wasn't a car, it was a van and its really high because it has this bag holder thing on top of the van. I didn't notice it at first until I went to the second level and I started to hear scrapping noise. Got out of the car quickly and found out that I made a hole to the bag holder thing O_O Last I heard, a concierge at my workplace scrapped the paint of the side door of a car and the customer wasn't impressed.. I can imagine what I'll get for this. I was like omgoshhh what am I going to do... but then the Holy Spirit quickly reminded me that I always break down when bad situation comes and I'm not acting how a Christian should live. I then took a deep breath, said a short prayer and know that what done is done , I know the large hole won't miraculously fix itself so I just trusted God that His grace will be with me and I'll not get yelled at.

I quickly told the manager so she could take care of it, then went for a break (and so I can hide away, just in case) came back 30min later, my manager told me
'It was okay, everyone makes mistakes, we're all human :)
....and you're really lucky because the guest SPECIFICALLY told us not give you a hard time because everyone makes mistakes. The guest was pretty nice about it, you're very lucky because 9 out of 10 guest would get mad.' I'm like 'WOW!' Thank You GOD!!! How great and awesome is He?? Amazingly the guest is okay with it and that's all that matters. My manager understood the situation and she was pretty cool about it as well. I'm really thankful to have a good manager as well because usually when things go sour, most supervisors I work with will start to swear and go haywire lol. Actually I think my manager couldn't even believe the guest was okay with it especially when I heard this was the 3rd time this has happened.... I wanted to share that it was God's grace but I was abit emmm... not comfortable and abit scared at the mometn because its just my 2nd week, but I do hope that they can see that God's Favor is in me.

So yeah, in the end I don't have to pay the damages because luckily enough the hotel covers for all the damages.... phew.

Work has been good so far, got commented by my manager that I'm doing 'exceptionally well' and when I asked for any improvements she said 'nope, you're doing good, its a learning process where we learn as we do things and you handled all the pressures well, good job!'

Apologies if this post seems a bit messy, I just got back from work and I need to go sleep now because in 8 hours I'll be working again lol.

Jesus Culture.....

We are therefore Christ's ambassadors......

I got this revelation from God a week ago when this came up from a conversation with a friend, and from this revelation came with another awesome revelation. So what was it?

It's culture.... it's the way we speak, act and behave. Its taking a transition from our culture to Jesus Culture.
As a Malaysian one of our favorite quote is 'DIE LAHH' Whenever something bad happens our first reaction is 'DIE LAHHHH'
or when when someone offended us we go 'That person ahh.... He @#$# this and that....... you know what he say....&^%&^ I cannot tahan him you know'
or how about driving and parking?
'waaaa tat $%# took my car park!!!! *&^*&^ tat driver so lousy'
Well that's one of the few of malaysian culture..
Maybe for the Western culture is that they love being sarcasatic? (I'm guessing)

I think you get what I'm trying to say here. Point is... God was challening me that
If I'm representing Christ...
If I'm called to be salt and light and to make an influence of the world then there has to be a standard. That standard is not of the worlds but of God. We stand on our convictions knowing what we believe in. Standard of convictions, standard of truths all from the Bible. Even also not following what other Christians are doing, because not all the time what they're doing are beneficial... its not wrong but not beneficial. So God was challenging me to get into His word, know the truth, get the convictions in and defend it, because those are the foundations that will help build me up and help build others.

So when bad circumstances happens instead of going what us Malaysians would always do like 'Die lahhh, no chance' we bring in the Jesus Culture and go 'Its ok, God is in control.. I trust Him' Imagine what your friends would think with those two different reactions?? Because AT THAT MOMENT.... you can either influence or be the same as the world and not make a difference. Which is it going to be? Thats an opportunity right there.

Prayer Meeting was so awesome yesterday and God was just confirming it through what Pastor Lance was sharing... He was giving the same example like 'When someone badmouthes a person, then are you going to join in and go 'Yeah!! That person is like a cow, He cant do his work well ...etcetcetc' or you can go 'Mmmm I know his like that but I want to pray for him and believe he can change' WOW!!! Is that awesome or what? Lance was then sharing about being imitators of God.. in our speech, in our character... its just basically what God was sharing with me for the past week bringing Jesus Culture in!!

Man, I'm so convicted and challenged to live in a whole notha' level......

Jesus help me then to develop Godly Biblical standards in my life for your glory

The One with the Job

After 5 months of praying, fasting, moulding my character, breaking and guidance from God, God finally provided me with a permanent part-time job in a 4.5 star resort. It really took a lot of perseverance and in the mean time God was providing weekly with just enough to survive with rent, groceries and fuel.. just barely. It was my first ever interview and I nailed it!

When I told Cheryl that I had an interview she literally screamed happily as if I just got engaged....and when I announced it in life group today it was the same reacion.. man I'm so blessed to have people around me that really supports and encourage you.

One thing I learnt a lot through this journey of getting this job but one thing I would like to share was not to settle for second best and believe that God has something bigger planned for you. I was actually complaining to God that I know I deserve something more, Im not meant to be in Maccas (not that its a bad thing) but I know I'm meant for something greater and true enough God confirmed to me when he showed me how Joseph was called to be someone great but he was in Prison, but God then took him from being in Prison to becoming a great man in Egpyt. So I was like.. wow! Ok I claim that promise along with the verse he gave me in Mark 10:24 '.....Whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have recieved it and it will be yours' Revelation I got was the moment you stop praying for something, you have lost your faith in it, So time to time God has been strengthening me and growing me to be ready for the job.

So it's a Concierge Job and tomorrow's my first day at work, hopefully it'll go well. Will update more soon ,gotta go to bed now cos I have to wake up at 4.45 am to get ready for work at 6 -.-

It's a miracle how I got the job (even in the midst of recession) and its truly by God's grace...
Interviewer: 'In your resume I see that you wrote you've worked as a Porter before, tell me more about that'
Me: 'Oh nothing much, just carrying and unloading bags thats all'

Top 10 what?

I havent been tag for awhile....... thanks Lamo for tagging me

MY TOP 10 MOST FAVOURITE FOOD:
1.Kolomee Pop!
2. Nasi Lemak
3. Chilli Crab *slurp*
4. Pad Thai
5. Buttermilk Chicken/Prawn
6. Lamb Shanks
7. McD Apple Pie (this stuff is addictive -.-)
8. Sushi
9. Mapo Tofu
10. CURRIES!!

MY TOP 10 THINGS TO DO:
1.Read my bible
2.Pray
3.Worship
4.Play my guitar
5.Listen to music
6.Sleep
7.Watch Drama
8. Lame jokes
9. Style hair and dress up
10. Play Basketball

5 THINGS I LOVE TO DO WHEN I'M EMO:
1. Sleep
2. Lock myself in my room away from the world
3. be quiet
4. Listen to loud music
5. Play games

5 TYPES OF GUYS/GIRLS I ADORE:
1. knows to have fun
2. girls with dimples when they smile ( soooo cute ;) )
3. one that loves other people and put others first
4. weird and funny in their own special way
5. girls that has a passion for Jesus!! :)

5 THINGS I LOVE TO DO WHEN I'M HAPPY:
1. laugh alot
2. Pull practical jokes on people
3. Compliment people alot
4. LoUd!!
5. Basically the sanguine side is unleashed!

5 THINGS I WISH TO HAPPEN:
1. I want to continue and grow to me a man... no longer a boy
2. To see breakthroughs, in my LG, Church, my sheep and myself
3. RIGHT NOW A JOB!!!!
4. See my friends know the awesome and Living God
5. I really wish for either world peace or the world would just end so we can go to heaven and live a perfect life but that wouldn't be possible for now :)

10 People To Tag:
1. Jaqy Wacky
2. Bannagurl
3. Lulu d Alien
4. Phat Sophia
5. Lawrence
6. Ireland Wong oops I meant Jon
7. Pizza Izzati
8. Lyns (if u still blog)
9. Lizzie
10. You! Yes you! you have been chosen!!

Randomness

My housemate was just talking about this girl he met from London and it just hit me and excitedly I went 'Hey!! I know what to call my daughter! London!!.... London Lee!!!' they burst out laughin and being the crazy housemate we were, my housemates went
I should call mine ' Ireland!' and the other is 'Scotland'

so in the end we have

London Lee

Ireland Wong

Scotland Tan

HAHAHAHA....... lameeeee to the max!

but honestly though... it doesn't sound to bad does it? what do you think? XD

I admit it! guilty!!!

Okay! I admit it! I started watching America's Next Top Model recently (OMGOSH!!) and have got hooked into it.. ( I blame Olivia for transferring her Cycle 9 to my hardisk)

It's pretty interesting to watch actually, not because of the girls but how Tyra picked certain individuals and from the first glance you'll go 'Are you blind girl?? She ain't model material' but after that you'll see them changed to wonderful models, and how Tyra was right to pick them. I found out two things about myself from watching the show, one is that I find that I started complimenting people more without thinking (influenced from J.Alexander and Jay) and the other part I found out which was kinda weird was that these two contestant were the one that caught my eye in the first episode and found myself rooting for them and loving them. Problem was these two girls are pretty unique and different.


Heather Kuzmich (first pic) and Allision Harvard (2nd pic), both are Art majors, both are shy and doesn't talk much, both were teased by people but in the end showed that they are better than other snoobish girls.


Heather was diagnosed with Asperger's Syndrome ,a mild form of Autism that hinders her social interaction and verbal communication especially in crowds but I really admire how she made it to the top 5 in Cycle 9. She loves technology and especiall Video/PC games =)

Allison is best known for he wide eye that looks like a 'freakish doll' or bride of Chucky, she has a fascination with nosebleeds. She's the runner up in Cycle 12

The weirdest part of all? Both has this ghostly, gothic, very tim-burton's-ish kinda look and I reckon they will do very well in Twilight movies =P So why do I find myself likin them and rootin for them compared to other girls? I don't know really.... I guess I have a weird fascination like them after all ^_^"

Trivia =) ... Believe it or not.. But I did modelled before for B.U.M Equipment when I was 10 =)

Get a grip Jason!

I was just out doing my own things at home yesterday morning when God just reminded me in the past. I would always go and say 'I want to do Great things for You Lord!' Looking back its been awhile since I've said it and really meant it. My Zeal and Passion for God is just on the border line, the passion is not there compared to before. Yes, doing ministry work is fine but sometimes when you do to much, the level of ministry will outweigh your relationship with God and that was what happened to me. I was just serving serving and my relationship with God at times would be neglected. Praise God, God is using me in playing the lead guitar in Church and I'm growing in it, Praise God, that I'm ushering and doing transport but I can't miss the most important part. My life, My Breath, my One and only Love.... Jesus.

Pastor Lance prayed for me and funny how the word I got was similar to the word my sister from Darwin gave me and it was about in the lines of 'to fall in love with God again' and 'God never gives you anything that is too big for you to handle' You see, I'm like this child and God has in His hands this wonderful thing but I can't see it and I don't know if I want it ,but God is saying to me not to settlef or 2nd best because there are ministries and things that God would use me in that I would never dreamed and hoped for but I have to get my life right first to get a grip, because I'm like this strong car, Good body and engine, the passion is there... only problem is the tyres, I've got the wrong grip on, its not gonna bring me far. I think it comes down to priority, to not waste times on things that are not beneficial, e.g. games *cough*. Funny enough its also related to a 2nd area.... 'cheeky babe' which I would not go into much details for now. I can just say I'm secure and I know that I'll definately get one :P

for now I need to get a grip! Like this Ferrari........ For.......Fweeeee!!!

Stir it up in my hearts... a passion for your name!

Dear blog....... ( _ _")

Dear blog...
I slept at 2.30am last night because I was playing Dota and after that I watched an episode of America's next top Model. It was really really cold it reached 5 degrees las night.

My phone rang at 3.10am and it was my supervisor from McD asking if I was coming to work and my shift was at 3am. I was shocked! quickly, I changed to my uniform, (forgot to brush my teeth) and went straight to work. I double checked my roster just in case , I could have sworn it was 3pm. Yup I was right, it was 3....3 freakin am! #$@!%^@

I missed one shift already because I was 2 hours late and my manager was not impressed, and if she finds out bout this shift that I missed for 30min........... I will forever remember her words 'you won't have a job here anymore' Oh God... I need a full time job soon, pls cal me back Vibe Hotel!

Just got back from work actually and surprisingly I'm still awake, but I need my beauty sleep so I'm going to force myself and get some good few hours of sleep.

Good night!

The standard: My Convictions

I commit to build solid biblical convictions in my life

I will build convictions that only not I will live but will also defend

My convictions are the foundation for my future and my life chocies will be based on them

Jesus help me then to develop Godly Biblical standards in my life for your glory

You are of God, little children, and have overcome them, because He who is in you is greater than he who is in the world. 1 John 4:4

80's night rocked!

80's night rocked and for those of you that didn't come you guys missed out =P I'm a 90's guy (born late 80's) and I can't believe we still managed to get people who was mostly from the 90's to dance lol. anyhow here are some pics... and remember I said i wanted to dress as those dudes in my previous post? I think I kinda overdid it and dressed up as...........

K.I.S.S!! HAHAHA

Got Jon to dressed up as KISS as well and we rocked the party that night, we're so cool :) haha. The cost to hire the costume was a bit expensive but was all worth it , cos we liven up the party and I won the best 'thriller' dance and best dressed award.

dats me doin the thriller dance :P

Edge of the 80's Night!! COME COME!

Kaleidoscope club is having their final event of the semester! Edge of the 80's Night on the 29th of May! No It's not an event where we come dress as if we're 80 years old. We're turning the clock back to the 80's!! Honestly, I don't know much about the 80's (although I was born in the late 80's) thats why we call it EDGE of the 80's with a hint of the 90's as well!

Come to de-stress before exams, have a fun time partayiinnn and there will be prizes for best dressed, best singer (karaoke), best dancer and some awesome games :)

Tickets are only- $10 for Kaleidoscope member and $15 for non members. Foods are included =) so if you are interested pls contact me either thru FB, This blog or my phone number.

(and I'm trying to dress like this if possible)

God is moving!

It so fitting that we were playing this song today for church today.... We wanted to see soul saved, we wanted to see a revival happening in the lives of people, we wanted to see God move and more people rise up....

wow! God is really moving, we are literally seeing miracles happening every week, and now we're seeing souls getting saved, even tonight! wow!! After all those weeks of going to uni and sharing the gospel, sowing the seeds I believe the harvest are coming in after prayers and now we're reaping it.

I was so encouraged today with many of the people's response when Belle gave the altar call for people who are willing to take the stand and build the Church of Hope Gold Coast together and their response kneeling down, crying and responding to God really really touched and encouraged me. It reminded the first year I got to church and responded the same way wanting to build this church. When I came in there was like what? 8-10 people every week but now wow.. we're really growing seeing the Passion of God n passion for Loving people there, growing from 10 to 15 to 30 to 45 now and we're believing for 60 good quality people! Looking back, I guess I have grown a lot in attitude,character and spiritually althought there are still lots of holes to work on. If I had to judge myself I would say I haven't grown as much as I would have hoped because of some mountains and road blocks I had to face in my journey. Yes it is a process and I rather go forward then move backwards so with all these young generation responding to God ... I can't help but not 'lose' to them in a way because it made me realized how slack I am especially with all the responsiblites I'm getting now.... God I need your strength =)

Gos is moving, God is moving

Can you hear the sound Of revival....

still searching..

Still searching for a new job its been many months now since I got back on Feb, I can't believe how time flies so fast. It's already May and I have worked in McD for a month. I know the job market is quite bad and I'm really not gonna let that bug me down. I have learnt in the midst of these all I can say is I'm going to be still and know that He is God.

I used to think what does it mean to 'be still'? in Hebrew it means râphâh literally means
to slacken. forsake, leave, let alone. In other words, to be weak. I have learn that through this I know that I'm nothing and God is everything, without Him I can do nothing. I have learnt through the midsts of trouble times ,learn to surrender yourselves to God for He knows and cares for us, basically going 'ok God I i'm going to leave this in your hands, you're in control'

It's just been a time of faith stretching and time to seek God and honestly it hasn't been easy. Yes I have been disappointed and discouraged but I have learnt to not let that weigh me down but know that He is Good. I'm still believing , waiting patiently and shine =)

Happy Mother's day

It was my mum's birthday a few days ago and today is Mother's day. Till now I call her 'Mi' (pronounce Mee).

When I was born my mum loved me, cared for me cos I was such a cute and naughty baby

When I was 3 mum thought I was cute also cos I took care and loved my newborn siblings

When I was 4 I was running naked with my pants at the end of my feet. mum went 'don't run you'll hurt yourself' BOOM!! fell down and my head started to bleed had to go to hospita

When I was 6 I got blamed a lot by my mum cos I was the oldest and my annoying twin siblings always got me in trouble

When I was 10 Mum hated me and didn't have confidence in me so she sent me to Prison... *cough* I meant tuition and it was hell.......

12-18 was the age I became a rebellious teenager, always having fights and arguments with mum, saying NO! Whenever I asked her If I could go gadong netcom (cybercafe) cos she was so afraid I would be smoking and turn emo there.

I always tried to suck up to her but shes no sucker and never fell for it.

I remembered, She hid the computer cable so i cant use the computer

I remembered she even hid the PS1 cable and because of that I had to buy a fake cable and blew my PS1.

Oh, I forgot to mention till 18 I was always getting hit by the rotan or cane -.-

Despite all the fights and arguments we had, I knew she did it all because mum loved and cared for me....... obviously I didn't understand why back then but now I do and I appreciate every bit of it (except for the eat my vegetables bit). Definately an awesome cook, and fed me really well :) Someone who is I guess humble in my eyes because she doesn't want any present or anyone to celebrate her bday all she wants is just to stay and relax at home, always willing to help those whos in need and looking out for predators that might eat her children up.....

I don't know if any of you guys experienced this but whenver I asked my dad for something he'll go 'ask your mum' wow.... isn't dad supposed to be the head of the house? turned out that my short mum became the lion of the house =.= anyway Happy Mother's Day!!! Altho you're in your early 50's you're still young at heart and stil love posing the for camera... your good son took it well from you HAHA

bad bad english

O crap.......... was browsin my email for some old stuffs yesterday and guess I stumbled upon this stupid email (2003) that I wrote, and boy was my eyes like this O_O I never knew my english was that 'manglish!!!' geez... it was a long email so I just some bits and pieces.


urm urm since holiday trying to find a job so can earn $$ but then haiya im not bruneian so hard to find work.. hai~ nvm stil hav othe things to do, i play game play game, play until sien already my (oh me broke already )

eh oh ya i watch chinese drama i borrowed wah lau so many then then i watch the cartoon(anime) i bought from KL in august hehe so many wahhh. i bought so many till broke Hunter X OVA(so many), slam dunk (hehe), boys be, lv hina, tales of eternia, shaman king aiyoo i still bought so many more, hai~~ my hse so cupboard full already ,at least i can watch all these in 3 months man bleh and and cannot miss out me playing basketball hehe, intensive training now, during exam didnt get to paly for 4 weeks man, i gained some weight then again my skill all go down so ah now train train lo

erm erm i think i wrote enuf, oh ya some of u must be thinking tat 'why is this guy telling me all these holiday stuff' eh i bored le and soo siau liam a bit lo

ok I think I'll stop there.... I can't believe I was using the word siau liam, hai~ ,leh actually the whole sentence structure was just awful -_-

on a side note... I'm having adrenaline rush and butterflies in my tummy during band practice yesterday.. I'm finally playing in Church with Elmo ^^

Ohh Gwee video

If you haven't read my testimony from my previous post pls do check the awesome testimony :)
In the mean time here's the Video of Oh Gwee~

Good news and Bad news

As most of you may know during Church service, my left eye was in a pretty bad state, I couldn't even open them, it felt as if its like a sharp spring that is preventing it from opening when I tried to open my eye. At one point I was afraid that I would go blind, I mean this has happened before where my eyes has go blurry and I couldn't see anything but this time it was worse, my eyes has this sharp pain and wouldn't open at all. I know it has something to do ith either my contacts or the solution. anyway went to hospital to see the doctor at about 9pm I think. I found out that some people had been waiting for 5 hours till it was their turn and it was an emergency room! I decided to spend tat time praying for me eye, nothing happened. after many times of prayer I decided to sleep abit thinking maybe my eye would be ok if I woke up, but that never happened, my eyes still couldn't open. So I decided to pray again abit then sleep, pray abit sleep, to the point, I questioned myself, God! why am I suffering like this! I wasn't blaming God for the suffering but was wondering its been hours now and theres no healing yet! I might as well feel like dying now, go to heaven and have a perfect body =P anyways 3 hours became 4 hours and 4 hours of waiting became 5 hours. When it was the 5th hour I knew it was almost my turn but I told myself not to give up and kept praying, remembering what Belle told me to Claim the Healing and take it! So i layed hands on my eye and kept praying for healing..... AFter a bit of prayer I could open my eyes again! I went 'LOOK! JON! my eyes can open and not close! but the pain is still there lets keep praying!!!' So we kept praying again I didn't realize that I was praying so loud and pointing my fingers at my eye telling it to open until Jon told me a lady was staring at us. anyway I kept praying even tellin God I don't want to pay 185 plus any extra charges jsut to see this doctor because I rather use that money for HIs kingdom. Praise God after much perseverance and prayer my eye opened and the pain was gone!!!! There was still slight pain about 20% but it was then I knew God has healed me and I can get out of the hospital, cos' i've been in the hospital for nearly 6 hours and its not my turn to see the doctor yet. Went and told the receptionist that I don't have to be in the waiting line anymore because I'm healed and she looked at me O_o going 'errr okkkk....' Praise God!!!

My left eye is ok now except its still abit blurry, which happened before but its going to be alright. Thank you all for your Prayers, SMSe's , forgive me if I didn't get to reply because it was on silent mode. Thanks Jon for coming enduring the painfully near 6 hours in the hospital with me, we're still wondering why only after 5 hours that God decided to heal?? haha. I guess one thing is faith, faith to believe God can do the impossible even when nothing has happened yet, knowing God IS able and WILL able to do it. Thank God I don't have to see the doctor and pay and Thanks Belle for enouraging me.

ooh the bad news? I have to wear specs for a week or so :(

Hope Gold Coast 4th Anniversary

You're all invited to Hope Gold Coast 4th Anniversary!!

When: Sunday 26th April, 2009 at Southport State High School.
You're all invited so pls do come join us =)

Theme: wear red
Highlights: Music, Multicultural Food, Birthday Cake, Video and Song presentation

Guest Speaker: Pastor Wilson

Ohh Gwee!

will update soon but till then.... here's the song I wrote for you Gwee!! :)

We made this song for a sister name Gwee

This song’s so cool its for Fwee!

I don’t see how anyone else can replace you….

ohhh Gwee

She used to have a cool car named Batsu

but now its been replaced to Daihatsu

I don’t see how anyone else can replace Batsu

ooh Gwee

Gwee talks in a supersonic speed

so fast until it becomes a hip hop beat
I don’t see how anyone else can replace you….

ohhh Gwee

Here is the church and here are the people

she sure is cute for the church keyboard player

I don’t see how anyone else can replace you….

ohhh Gwee

She has a cool sister called Elise

don’t leave her settling the house lease
I don’t see how anyone else can Tahan(stand) this

ooh Gwee

She’s from a cool group called Acts29

She never fails to make Jesus Shine!

I don’t see how anyone else can replace you

ooh Gwee

You never fail to make us laugh

With your broken rojak market engrish

I don’t see how anyone else can replace you

HAIYO Gwee

Now that you’re leaving for Darwin
we hope that you can go there to kahwin (marry)

I don’t see how anyone else can replace you

ooh Gwee

Du du du (3x)

Now is time to end this song

we’ve been singing for way too long

don’t forget us anytime soon

please Gwee

You have serve the church of Hope gold coast

don’t forget us..please send us a post

hope you have fun in Darrrwin

Bye Bye Gweeeee

Off to Melbourne!

So I decided to update my blog because I'll be gone for a week and take this time to update on what's been happening.

I finally went to my McD orientation and I got my uniform yay :) training starts next week! oh and its funny how the manager told us that 4 weeks ago a guy came in with a shotgun and robbed the restaurant, this never happened in its 24 years and this is its first .... of all times -_- and I found one fact quite funny, A box of diet coke weigh less than a normal one cos it has less sugar... call me sakai but I only realised it and went 'ooooohhhhh' XD

I worked today and it was the worst shift ever..... I slept at 12 woke up at 3am to get to brisbane and started work at 6am, it was at a port and guess what was my job description. A Porter.... sounds good but heck no, in the Port the porter loads and unloads all the bags that comes in and out for the day and yes I was doin that for 6 hours straight, lifting and pushing 2500++ bags. No kiddin' I think I just cut 1 year of my life

Oh yea and I;m off to Melb woohoo! Can't wait to see my friends there and the conference will definately be awesome! It's about The Holy Spirit and can't wait to be empowered, impacted and transformed!! I still dunno why so many ppl keeps asking me to buy stuffs for them from melb -.-

Domo Rocks and Cherry Coke sucks

I went shopping during two days ago and look what I got! Cool ey? I'm a big fan of Domo for a long time and I was stoked when I saw this shirt hehe :)Yea I went shopping two days ago, initially I didn't want to spend anything at all but I was drawn to that shirt then I saw some more cheap clothes that were on sale and got tempted to buy it. I partly blame Ping for bringing me there and because of that I spent close to $90 including some cheap food I got from the reject shop! Ping was being lame when she said 'I bought you from the reject shop' Ooohhh Snap!!!

Oh yeah tried Cherry Coke for the first time and it was disgusting, 'somebody' heard it was nice so we bought it and seriously this will be the first and last time I'll be having Cherry Coke.

Worked yesterday for a kickboxing match and I got to see legends fight like John Wayne Parr, The preacher, Carnage waaaaaa. I was even next to Soron Mongkontong and John!!! I didn't have a pen to ask for an autograph and my phone batt went dead so I couldn't take any pics ... bummer =( Sorry you won't understand this unless you watched The Contender Asia or you're into kickboxing =P

Time heals nothing

Its one of those days where you get this LOL moments :)

Me: miss jacky, aou a u
Lamo: eye aim ou gay
Me: zomg, ou a gay! HAHAHA XD
Lamo: SHATAP!

HAHAHAHA

Here's something I read yesterday and would like to share with y'all

Time Heals Nothing

I know theres the old age cliché "Time heals all wounds" we are told to hang in there, put a smile, wait for time to anesthetize our pain. When we hurt, time only magnifies the pain. Days and weeks go by and agony hangs on. The hurt won't go away, no matter what the calendar says. Time may push the pain deeper into the mind, but one tiny memory can bring it to surface. Time heals nothing, God Heals!

Taken and praphrased from David Wilkerson- Have you felt like giving up lately

Which is so true... long story short, I shared yesterday at life group about the pain I had when people would ask me to shut up when I sing, or the rain would start pouring or worse.... practicing 1 hour before Church service and the Senior Pastors asks you to not sing but just open your mouth pretending you're singing? wow. (no not the church in Aus but back in Msia =P) Now that really stuck a dagger to your heart especially when you're called to be a Worship Leader, when you love singing, Praisin n worshppin God and doubts begin to creep in, holes are open for the devil to come in and put more lies, and make you think you're unworthy. But I really Thank God that I've managed to surrender my pain to Him, to cast my burdens on the cross and knowing that everything will be ok because someone has taken my burdens. Now whenever ppl tell me that I sing off tune, or I suck at it, I'm ok with it, no more dagger to the heart because God has healed me and I know that one day I can overcome this area of fear of failure in singing and turn it to a wonderful testimony =)

New Skin ^_^

yay! Finally I decided to change my skin, it was a hard decision as I loved my old skin but I was glad I found something similar or better than the previous one. Comments will be appreciated on how and what to improve ^_^ and million thx again to Bananagurl who always helped me with my html stuffs, i feel so c2pid T.T

Oh yeah I got 2 more new gifts, a Hamburger CD case and a Jim Bean Bottle from my Sheep @_@ He knows I like Bourbon

I just started my iPod today LOL! It was awesome but the process of transferring songs was a pain and I HAD to find album covers for the songs just cos it'll look cooler XP Finished New Moon and gonna be reading Book 3 of the Twilight series soon. Honestly though I have no idea why am I reading a teenagers novel -.-

Oh and I feel so naked now without my black nails =x everyone was asking, Jason!!! Why so Emo!!!! Some said it was ugly Some said it was sexy , and some said said it was cool =) I had to tell them its fashion, then they went 'Yea! Emo fashion' geez -_- anyway I told them im not trying to be cool, not trying to be emo.................... I'm a...

ROCKSTAR!!!!!! XP

The Power of Your Name

I love the Lincoln Brewster Album I got for my bday, been listening to it and this song really touched me, the lyrics are meaningful so true and made me realized that there's so much brokeness in this world, but we as God's children , carrying God's compassion, to love others, to give the life we have been given to others, to Love God, Love People, Love Life.

The Power of Your Name feat Darlene Zschech

Surely children weren't made for the streets

and the fathers were not made to leave

Surely this isn't how it should be

Let your Kingdom come

Surely nations were not made for war

or the broken meant to be ignored

Surely this just can't be what You saw

Let your Kingdom Come, Here in my Heart

I will Live, to carry your compassion

To love a world that's broken

To be your hands and feet

I will Give, with the life that I've been given

and go beyond religion

to see the wold be changed

By the Power of your Name

Surely life wasn't made to regret

And the lost were not made to forget

Surely Faith without action is dead

Let Your Kingdom come, Lord Break this Heart

Your Name, is a shelter for the hurting

Jesus Your name, is a refuge for the weak

Only your name, Can redeem the undeserving

Jesus Your Name, Holds everything I need

Belated Bday Post!

So I decided not to celebrate my birthday this year..... reason why was because I'm 22, I feel there isn't really a need to celebrate and my birthday hasn't always been that great. I do appreciate what people do for me during my bday and I really thank them for it but it just feels like any other event and I never get any good gifts for that matter. So I was like ahh wtheck, I'm not gonna plan anything cos ppl will then ask 'why did u not invite me' blablabla

Turned out that this year's bday wasn't so bad after all.... I can probably put it in my Top3, whats' my top? I have no idea but it's hidden in my memory somewhere If i can relocate it haha, that is why I said its in the top 3 just in case if I remember XD

I kinda celebrated my birthday for three days. Saturday we had BBQ on the beach and you know beach is my fav place to be and later in the noon my friends surprised me with an *gasp* iPOD!!!! Heck yea I was serious when I said I waited 4 years to get one.... I always entered surveys to get a chance to win one but I never did =( I was really grateful for the gift the guys chipped in. After the BBQ went out to have dinner with a special someone :) Everyone sang happy bday to me in church and had a late dinner after that. Monday had another dinner , had a big sukiyaki night :) so i was fell fed hehe

Oooo wats tat.... Ooo an Ipod! Got to love the beachMy presents...

I think this book is a book in season, thx chung!

Carol got me this bunny haha cos I was born in the year of rabbi... quite creative

Geez dis album is very good, check him out guys! Thx fab and jos!My iPod.. Haven;t open yet.. just leave for 'Pai Mei' First, and also a P.S you're cute chocolate bar from Ping .. Thanks! =)
And painted my toe nails black XD

oh yea and I'm officially working in McD McFlurry anyone?

Breakthrough

I knew I was going to get a breakthrough this week, but I was hoping for something like a new job but little did I know that breakthrough was about my my Spiritual Life.

The past three days were crappy, I was moody, partly because I was tired and sick of not getting a job despite me going everywhere and applying. I was angry with God, asking why did I have to suffer during those 3 days and where are my favor and blessings? Where was the Harvest he promised? Where was the job and so on.... It's as if His hedge and hands over me was gone. Did i suffer because of my sin or unavoidable disaster (God/satan?)

Yesterday's quiet time was one of the best quiet time I had for awhile and God prompted me to read Job. I did... and God opened my eyes and made me realized how selfish and how blinded I was. If I didn't get what I want, I would blame God, and think that God 'disowned' me. Job's faith in God really inspired me after losing 7000 sheeps, his family and his livestocks. First reaction I would get was to blame God and ask why!!! But Job, first reaction was to fell down to worship and said

"I came naked from my mother’s womb, and I will be naked when I leave. The Lord gave me what I had, and the Lord has taken it away. Praise the name of the Lord!”

and on the next verse it said

In all of this, Job did not sin by blaming God

Wow I've been blaming God all this time and made me realized one thing.... My faith was based on rewards and prosperity, that is hollow. If those were taken away would I still worship God or would I blame Him and walk away? To be unshakable, faith must be built on the confidence that God's ultimate purpose will come to pass.

I told God..... no job, its ok, no blessings, its ok, I know theres plenty in the storehouse waiting to be open in your timing. I'll wait patiently and although I have nothing now... yet I will praise thee.

3 days in a row

3 bad days in a row now.... I have no idea what's going on.

Saturday was already bad (previous post)

Sunday wasn't good as well, was quite discouraged

Monday morning.... Today!! I was looking forward to a brand new day. no luck. first thing when I went to the bathroom my anger was already boiling up, some douche went and dropped my new shampoo on the floor and the shampoo was all over the bathroom and didn't even bother to wash it. That was early in the morning.. hows that? I'm running low on cash since I have no job and guess what? I was fined $150 today for parking, yea yea my fault but jsut the fact I had got fined ugh...... to top it off I came home, as usual the kitchen was in a mess and no one bothered to clean to the fridge all the time as I was the one doing it all the time and taking out the thrash.....geez.

I feel like Job now -.- and I have a feeling Im going to lose my basketball game again tmrw..... sigh

Series of Unfortunate Events... really!

Saturday, March 14th , Wasn't a Good day for me. It's the weekend and its a day after Friday the 13th, not that I believe in that anyway but my day yesterday was absolutely crap. Could have never been worse.

Woke up at 7.45am and had to get ready to go surfing, the main point of the event was that we could invite new students/friends but the downside was that it was all the way in Currumbin which was close to 40min drive. There's no way people would wanna come if it's so far and the only reason we had it there was because the surfing was cheaper... fair enough but if you add the petrol that needed to go there it adds up the same amount. If we had it in Surfers where we usually do, at least people would know how to get there by their own and join us whenever...... that's just me complaining about surfing.....

The bad part was driving on the way Currumbin, I took the wrong turn, went all the way to uni and had to take a long way back to the highway (I didn't know where was the short way) there goes my fuel consumption. Then I was told to take exit 95 which I did but it turns out the people who gave me the directions didn't take that turn and took an earlier exit so we went to first beach= nobody.... called and tried second beach= nobody....... called and tried to ask where are they, crappy directions were given.... so i decided to go with my insticnts, reached a place that had many people.... nobody and in the end I just went 'Hey I'm here at elephant park, Go ask someone how are we going to get to your place from my place' easy as that. Done deal. Now this may seem like nothing but for the driver himself can be quite stressful, so annoyed when one of my passengers went 'ur like my mum, why so stress when driving' geez man..... after taking so many turn and not finding the place i'll surely be stressed right, for the passengers they're ok cos they're not driving... gosh!

Did have fun surfing but towards the end I got annoyed again. I told my friends hey I want to leave and reach home bout 1ish cos I have work tonight and I need to rest. Yea they were in the water for so long they completly forgot about time, no worries, I'll wait and just use this time to sunbathe. When they came back I said lets get ready to go now, and they wanted to climb that huge rock thingy -_- . I said go go but come back fast. yeah right... 20min and they're not back yet so I decided to take a walk to the shops and come back, and finally everyone was ready.... I was frustrated of course having to wait for so long and it was close to 2 and I went,
'why so long? I said I wanna go home early already ma'
'But it wasn't long , and u just got back'
'I just got back cos I had to wait for u all for 20min under the sun and you guys haven't show up yet.'

then when it was time to go home.... took every1 5min to decided who to follow who...
'why don;t follow my car? I'm going uni!'
'oh.. she doesn't think we're good enough friends'
ugh so childish....
either way Im bringing them to uni so its the same thing and people can decide who they wanna go with ya.... because of that it took them ages to decide who to follow who....

oh and my friend lent this Nike shoes to my housemate which he hasn't worn for 2 years. So my housemate used the shoe and two days later I used the shoe as well for a day. Didn't notice anything wrong with the shoe until yesterday when my friend complained there was a slight tear on the shoe... woah! he wanted us to buy him a new shoe oh, and pay quite a huge amount for a rm250 that he rarely uses and the quality wasn't good as well. It's not settled yet but I told my housemate ill shar the responsiblity and what we could do is just buy the shoe off him and use it which is better than getting him a new one. What I don't get is, we're friends and you still treat us like that? Want us to pay for the shoes?? If it was my friend tat tore my shoe just a lilbit I would get angry of course but I wouldn't even EVER think of asking them to pay for it..

I managed to get home at 2.30 and had to leave for work at 4pm wasn't much time to rest cos I had to cook lunch as well. ALMOST got into an accident. I was stopping at the traffic light and when it was green I pressed on the accelerator and my car went on reverse NEARLY hitting the car behind me, it was a good thing the car behind me horned if not I would have hit her. See that? I was driving the whole day up and down an 80min trip and I didn't get enough rest to drive to work and nearly got into an accident...... thanks a lot

Work was bad
1.) Realized I was day dreaming when I was serving customers during a cocktail party, realized it when Kids were laughing and pointing at me. I guess my expression showed I was in lalaland
2.) I was working in the bar for an hour and during that one hour somehow my shoulder knocked the tray and the beer spilt all over the floor. Whole bar was in a big mess.
3.) Event started, My role is to deliver take orders and deliver drinks. One time I had a bottle of champagne, 2 glasses of champagne, one beer and one wine. was walking halfway I slipped and fell on the floor HARD. I was so shocked and stunned i was lying on the floor for like 6seconds before I realized what had happened. Supervisor and associate came and went 'are u ok are u ok?' phew! at least I didn't get scolded. That resulted in a late delivery of drinks, customer said he gave me $50 and the change I given was wrong and I had to change cos I stink of alcohol which lead to a late delicery of drinks
4.) I was being careful not to slipped and when I finally got into the room my associate bumped me accidentaly and my drinks fell on the carpet -_- great....
5.) There was this guy at work that is so friendly and helpful to me... are you ok? hows it goin? and in the end I realized he was....... I think.....gay

• So how old are you? I'm 21... Are u married?
• Do you have a gf? It's complicated, single for now, yea thats the best ;)

so that was ok until.......

• Are you staying with friends or family? oh staying with friends.... Guy or girl friends? Guys... that's very good! less problems hehe
• He went 'Hey baby' to me
• He always touched me on my hip or shoulder whenever I talk or he talks to me, one time was my hip nearly to my bum
• He took a napkin and spank my bum -.-

and yes..... me meeting him for the first time that's being overlyfriendly don't you think? lol

so yeah that was my crappy Saturday.... I can't believe it was that bad sigh
oh good thing was I did managed to invite that guy to church lolz.

still jobless....

still jobless.... still looking for a job... still bummin' around doing nothing useful and when I plan to do something useful I go to sleep (really!)

nothing much happened these few days but did have some pics to post.. will do it some other time XP

I thought.....so why....

I thought I have moved on, I thought that it was all ok. So when that thing suddenly happened why do I have this feeling..... why do I care so much, why is this affecting me cos its not supposed to.... not to sound emo (=P) but it just hurts, it pains till the point I couldn't even sleep. (c-mon Jas! get it out of your head, what are you whining about) Its bound to happen, I didn't expect it to be so soon. Yeah Go on, I have my own path, you have yours. All I can do is silently support you by your side.... i'll be alrite, don't worry about me or how I feel... :)

说好的幸福呢 by 周杰伦

Your reply is still reverberating chaoticly, at this point of timeWhen I thought of the white doves beside the fountain, the sweetness is scattered

My feelings are inexplicably dragging on, as I realised that I still love youAnd yet you continue singing this song, pretending that everything is alright

Time has passed and walked away, and there's a choice to be made when it comes to loveY

ou're becoming apathetic and tired, and I cried

You wrote a card describing the unhappiness when you leftSometimes when love reaches this point, it really hurts

What happened, you're tired, where is our promised happiness? I understand, so there's no point talking anymore; our love has become bland and my dreams have become farfetched

Counting carefully the times of happiness and unhappiness that you won't let goI still remember very clearly the feeling of having loved

You've given up waiting, so where is our promised happiness? I was wrong; my tears have dried; I have let go; and have regretted

But that musical box containing the past is still turning, so how do I stop that?

Tiger luck hahahah =P

Ever seen the ad where it goes something like this?

'Buy two cans of coke and get a chance to win a trip to Las Vegas!!'

Yea I bet you have, and people always wonder if those rewards are real or if someone will actually win it? What are the chances?

Guess what? Mr Jason Lee has bought himself a White Tiger Coffee Drink not knowing there's a chance to win something from that. One fine morning his housemate came in his room, gave him an envelope and in there it wrote....

Wait let's zoom in and read it again.......

Won a double pass to Dreamworld???? WOOT!!! Out of the 120 tickets that were given out in Gold Coast with a population of 527000++ I was one of the few lucky people who won the tickets!

Dreamworld anyone? If not I'm going to sell them and earn some cold hard cash :)

Thank God for the blessing

You are Good

There are times when waiting can seem forever but Lord....
You are Good
There are times when I see no fruits but Lord....
You are Good
The disappoinments I have....
You turn it to opportunities....
You are Good
Times I cry out for the harvest and I see none.... but Lord...
You are Good
Times I have fallen away from you, rejected you, despised you, yet you call me back as your own....
You are Good
Troubled times..... darkness comes.. waves comes crashing in.... only You I can turn to
You shelter me from harm, to find refuge in the shadows of your wings
You are Good
Indescribable...
You are Good
You promises are true, Your Grace is sufficient
You are Good
I'm not good with words, but I do know one thing Lord
You are Good :)

But do not forget this one thing, dear friends: With the Lord a day is like a thousand years, and a thousand years are like a day. The Lord is not slow in keeping his promise, as some understand slowness. He is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance. 2 Peter 3:8-9

I trust you in your unfailing love and your goodness, I will sing praises and lift a song from my heart to you ....I BELIEVE

New Car! =)

Update: Got a name for him, its MUD!!! Reason was because I got the car from Mudgeeraba lol.

I just got my new car and his a steal!
With only 52000km
Very good fuel economy
Mitsubishi Lancer 1999
4 cylinder, 1.5 Auto
Mostly stored in the garage and engine looks new, new tyres and no scratches
I got the car for a whoopin $6400 it was $7000 but managed to negotiate it to $6400 hehe
Now can go drive and pick up gals I mean friends Vroom Vroom!!!

Now what is left is a job (still jobless) and my visa application to go through......

When God....

When God wants to drill a man
And thrill a man
And skill a man,

When God wants to mold a man
To play the noblest part;
When He Yearns with all His heart
To create so great and bold a man
That all the world shall be amazed,
Watch His methods, watch His ways!

How He ruthlessly perfects
Whom He royally elects!
How He hammers him and hurts him,
And with mighty blows converts him
Into trial shapes of clay which Only God understands,
While his tortured heart is crying
And he lifts beseeching hands!

How He bends but never breaks
When his good he undertakes,
How He uses whom He chooses
And which every purposes fuses him,
By every act induces him
To try His splendour out-
God knows what He's about!!

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